SummaThorax
Hi Authormin,
How are you doing?
I hope you are doing well and are healthy.
I really don’t know why I’m typing this here but I feel like I need someone to hear me out.
It’s been exactly 2 months since everything started and I just can’t process anything related to the situation. I can’t listen to any song from them, I can’t follow on the news updates, I can’t watch content or do anything related to them without being and feeling hollow and emptied out.
I’m trying to be supportive but I just can’t do or stand anything right now.
It feels like everything is going too fast and everyone has moved on, like the past 6 years never existed. I can’t do anything without feeling like I’m failing someone and I’m not fighting strong enough, then also feeling like I’m doing to much and hurting them…
I can’t stomach anything. I’m filled with soo many emotions at ones it feels like I don’t have anything.
Nothing feels really true, everything feels like it’s underwater, and noisy and quiet all at the same time.
Like everything is just fake and nothing is real.
I honestly don’t know if to consider myself an ENGENE or not.
This year already didn’t start off on a good note personally for me and… I just don’t know what to do or what I expect of me because everything and everything expects something from my and I feel the pressure building up but stopped feeling it too.
I don’t know why I’m saying this here but I just want to say everything to someone real and alive without keeping it to myself and slowly feeling like I’m going mad.
It’s getting hard to pretend as if everything is okay and fine.
Yeah… :)
- T.K
Jaywoostan
@SummaThorax Hi! I'm doing pretty well and staying strong as an OT7. I know it's been really hard for you and for all of us, but we're holding on together. Please take breaks whenever you need to, and feel free to message me on X anytime. I'm always here if you want to talk or need some motivation.
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SummaThorax
It doesn’t even feel like two months have passed. It feels like I’m stuck in the past and everyone is way ahead into the future.
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