Jazz

So I'm slowly coming back. Finding motivation and ideas is a little hard still but I'm going to try to do as much as I can. Mentally, I'm getting better but now my physical health needs my attention. If there are any suggestions you guys want to make for "The most unexpected things happen" sequel then feel free to comment them here! It can be new characters, scenarios, anything!

I don't know when my next update will be for any story
          
          2 weeks ago, I lost my pupper and I'm struggling to cope with everything. 
          
          I had gotten back on track then lost all progress. 
          
          Mental health is just as serious as physical health so please bare with me while I recover over the next few months

So it's been a while since I've said anything and here's the story of everything.
          
          I see my boyfriend nearly every weekend and when I'm there, it helps get rid of stress from home.
          
          When I'm back home, I'm full of stress, anger, sadness, just so many negative emotions.
          
          
          This has caused me to stop writing all of my stories and I'm now trying to get my mental health back on track. Until I can get a regular routine going, I don't think I can update any of the stories. There's just a bit much going on at the moment and I hope you can all understand this. I just need time to focus on my health right now.
          
          Just don't give up on me yet

As you may or may have not noticed, I have temporarily unpublished Expect The Unexpected because of some editing that needs to be done, due to me having a different outlook for this sequel. Please bare with me as I make these changes and I promise, I will start publishing the chapters again once I have the right idea

So the weekend has passed and might I say, it was the best weekend ever. 
          
          He arrived at my house about 11:50am and I almost fainted. He got out of his car and I was almost convinced it wasn't real. But when he was infront of me and we hugged, I knew it was real but was in a state of shock. I introduced him to my mom and when I sat down, I almost fainted but managed to keep myself from collapsing. It was the weirdest feeling ever because I've fainted and had many close calls before but it's never happened because of meeting someone. 
          
          The weekend couldn't have been anymore relaxing than it was. It was absolutely amazing. I didn't want to leave but coming home today, I realized I needed a little reality kick every so often. Although I'd love to be relaxed every day, the anxiety in me is what tells me what could be lurking around. 
          
          He's definitely the one for me and nothing is changing that

I don't think anyone will see this but  I'm just giving a little rant. There's just under 7 hours till I meet my boyfriend and I haven't slept at all. When I lied down and tried to get some sleep, I started having a panic attack and started crying. This started at 2am and ended around 3am. I'm still nervous as hell but I stopped crying so it's a start. It's 5 in the damn morning and I know I won't get any sleep until tonight, when I stay over my boyfriend's house. 
          
          I'm worried about not being up to his expectations and him being let down, even though he says I'm perfect the way I am. 
          
          I've just been let down so many times that I don't want anyone to feel like that. He loves me for who I am and I love him for who he is but the damned voices seem to overpower me sometimes and know how to get to me emotionally. 
          
          I can already feel a connection with him and I know we haven't met so some might say I'm deluded but I'm honestly not. Something brought me and him together and I don't know what did but I'm so glad it did. 
          
          He makes me feel alive, safe and loved.