Phoenix

My life has gotten SO much better lately and honestly, I love it. Except I can't have the love of my life here when I just want to cuddle. But other than that, I'm really happy and I'm in such a better place.
          
          
          Also! I have a new name. My name is Phoenix Rain Day. You can just call me Phoenix. I have no preferred gender so you can use any pronouns at any time and I honestly won't care.
          
          
          
          Anyways, it's 3:23 am as I'm writing this. I have no idea why I'm still up but honestly I'm not tired, which I'm not surprised about. LOL.

Such a shitty thing he did, the way he said goodbye
          You can take it out on me if you like
          F*ck away the pain, erase him from your brain
          Fake it like you love me, Come on baby touch me, 
          Show me where it hurts, this dirty little curse
          Don't have to be ashamed if you wanna scream my name
          While I f*ck away the pain
          You hate the way he fooled around behind your back
          A slave to him but now with me, no strings attached
          But if you wanna use me up and leave me in the bed
          If that's what you need go right ahead
          F*ck away the pain, erase him from your brain
          Fake it like you love me, Come on baby touch me, 
          Show me where it hurts, this dirty little curse
          Don't have to be ashamed if you wanna scream my name
          While I f*ck away the pain
          Stronger than a shot of whiskey or any pill you take
          F*ck away the pain, erase him from your brain
          Fake it like you love me, Come on baby touch me, 
          Show me where it hurts, this dirty little curse
          Don't have to be ashamed if you wanna scream my name
          While I f*ck away the pain
          
          -F*ck Away The Pain by Divide The Day

OMG I'VE BEEN READING THESE RPS MY FRIENDS WROTE CAUSE LIKE ONE OF THEM GAVE ME A BINDER FULL OF RPS AND THEY'RE FLIPPING AMAZING!!!!!!!! I LOVE THEM AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

I'm crying to the point where I can't see and I feel like I'm about to pass out in school

I fOrGoT hOw MuCh I hAtE bEiNg A fEmAlE aHhHhHhHh

I just want to die...

Somedays I'm dreaming, stuck in my bed. Making plans in my underwear. Yeah you may think that I'm out of my head. But I don't f*cking care, I don't f*cking care. Cause if this all falls down, I'll still amount to something. I'll still amount to something. I'll stay proud even if I have nothing. I really wanna say that the world can go to hell, oh-oh. So I can finally be myself -Andie Case Be Myself

AHHHHHHHH I HATE BEING A FEMALE SOOOOOOO FREAKING BADLY RIGHT NOW

I want to die

Welp im crying