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you guys i need some help bc i'm kinda stressing out rn (stressing because the election, questioning if im no longer aroace, and wondering if i like my friend T-T)
          
          (im just gonna call my friend, G, for this bc i dont want to say his real name)so I, like many people, woke up today and cried because the election and shit, so when i got to school (basically everyone in my classes were depressed about Kamala not getting elected, including me) i was really sad and trying my best not to cry again.
          
          In my science class im with basically all my friends and i went straight over to my best friend and hugged her, then i sat down and a bunch of my friends came up to me and we all just tried not to be sad (that was fucking impossible) and then, G came up to me and he asked if i needed a hug (Ive only ever gotten a hug from him once so i was kinda shocked ngl) and i said yes.
          
           After the hug, my friends and i kept talking, and then G put his hand on my shoulder. (ill try to explain better) basically i was sitting down on these tall stool things and he was standing on my right, and his hand landed on my left shoulder AND he was standing super close to me too.
          
           i didnt know what to do so i kinda moved my head a bit closer to him so basically i was resting my head on his chest.... and im pretty sure im aroace, but that was a very weird moment, and it felt really comforting having him there because hes not a very huggy person, (he was fine with me doing this btw)
          
           And now im confused because like wtf was i doing and idk whats going on. 
          
          Like.... was it just comforting because hes my friend that doesnt hug people often and it was really nice of him, OR am i not aroace? (i mean i thought i was aroace because ive never felt that way towards anyone, but maybe not?? idk.)
          
           So now i need some peoples help, because idk if i did that because i rarely get hugged by G or if i was feeling something?? Idk please help T-T
          
          (also im so fucking scared for the next 4 years)

one of my friends said they have a yt channel but didn't tell me what it was and I asked what vids they did and then they sent a vid of one of their friends wearing a therian mask and dancing to a song. 
          
          (not judging any therians btw, as long as you guys are nice, its chill) i was still wondering about the channel (im way too curious and i feel bad now) so i asked one more time and they said it was them doing cringey things and they were worried i would judge them. 
          
          I then told them "idgaf what you do because your one of my best friends." they said "ty" and then tonight i got even more curious and may or may not have tried to find their channel. so i went to the tiktok handle thing that was on the vid of their friend and then i looked them up on yt and i clicked on a vid with a group of therians and recognized my friend in it.
          
          so then i clicked on the one person linked below and they had also posted a video of this moment. i clicked on the comments and saw one say "omg this was so fun lol" so i looked at the channel and found my friend. 
          
          and now i feel bad because i feel like i shouldnt have done that. im way to curious about my friends since i have nothing going on in my life lmao. i havent told my friend that i found their channel but i left a comment on one of their vids so idk whats gonna happen next.
          
          just posting this because i want to tell someone about this because i feel bad and i feel like i shouldnt tell any of my friends because they know this person and might judge them and i dont want that to happen. 
          
          anyways you are all epic, have a good day/night :D

help, One of my close friends just told me that a guy that hes friends with and im friends with, likes me and i feel really bad because im AroAce so i dont have those types of feelings and i really dont want to loose this guy as a friend. Idk what to do T-T

Im watching georges birthday stream and i opened a pack of sour patch (from halloweeennnnnnn) and the first 3 colors i saw were green, blue, and orange. LIKE WHAT

YALL IM GOING TO THE ERAS TOUR!!!!!!!

i just found out that one of my guy friends likes one of my old friends and they both like eachother and i was the first person he told and i think im happier than i should be rnnnnn

omg wait, its officially been 2 years since george moved in with dream and sapnap!! <333

*points* DNF

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