It's new chapter Tuesday wahooo. Theres a poll at the end of todays chapter,  so I'm looking forward to your responses 

I have that many books on my TBR list that I'm now asking my Alexa to pick a number for me between 1 and however many are left and then reading that one haha. Im so indecisive haha

Sorry guys, I almost forgot spoiler Sunday. So here it is
          
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          Seven sets of eyes watched me, waiting patiently for me to speak. It's okay. It's just the guys. Just tell them what's going on with you. Just be open and honest with them, you owe them that. Tell them everything, I thought to myself. I looked at Ri, a silent question in my eyes. Would he really let me tell them everything though? I mean, it's not just my story to share now is it? Ri looked at me, eyes scanning my face, almost like he was reading the question in my mind. After a moment, he drew his mouth into a small smile and nodded softly. "It's okay. I trust you" he said softly.
          
          I didn't know what to say to that, how to respond. I just stared back at him. He....what? He'd be okay with me sharing everything? Really? That doesn't make sense. I felt the first tear fall before I even had a chance to move to catch it. I brought my hand up to catch the next ones though, wiping at my eyes with my sleeve. "Shit, I don't even know why I'm crying anymore" I lied. I knew full well. It was because of Ri. Because he was here, sitting next to me, supporting me. And he'd just told me it was okay to tell them everything if I wanted to. And it was too much.
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          Also, there will be a poll at the end of the next chapter (ooh new feature) but I'll ask here too and you can still vote after you've read the full chapter on Tuesday.  
          
          My question is....who would you like the next chapters POV to be? I'm not going to give you the options until Tueaday, but I am curious....
          

I am an absolute blubbering wreck right now, but I need to recommend this book. I write this with tears still streaming down my face.
          
          I feel I shouldn't love something that hurt so much.The book is beautiful. Its raw, powerful, honest, full of pain, love and even hope. It's beautifully written from start to finish. Trust me when I say I have NEVER in all my years cried at a story like I cried for this book. I mean ugly crying, hyperventilating, headache inflicting sobbing into my hands, feeling like my soul is leaking from my eyeballs kind of crying. 
          
          If you read one fanfiction this year, please let it be this one. You can hate me all you want for recommending it to you and making you cry, but you'll also thank me. Go show the author the love they deserve ❤️❤️❤️❤️
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/394002403

Next weeks chapter is locked in and ready for next week. 
          
          We are on the struggle bus to trauma town now, kids. The doors are locked and they'll be no stops from now on. You paid for your ticket, so you're stuck here with me.
          
          I hope you brought enough tissues to share with the rest of us,  because we're going to need them. If not, I suggest someone starts tearing up some clothing.

It's new chapter day, wahoo. This week the boys actually talk to each other. I know right? My flabbers are gasted haha.
          
          The next chapterbis almost written and I'm hopeful to fet at.least one more written this week if I can. 
          
          Anyway, enjoy the new chapter dropping tonight and as always, I look forward to seeing your comments ❤️

Guys, I've written myself into a trauma corner and I don't know how to get out haha. Why am I doing this to myself?  This story is kicking me right in the feels.
          
          The good news is that I have the next week off, so I'm going to force myself to get more chapters written. I'm making a plan of what else I want I want to include in the rest of the story, then hopefully the remaining chapters will be a bit easier to write. But the struggle is real. 
          
          Anyway, it's Spoiler Sunday, so I guess I have to give you a little taster of the upcoming chapter. I'm still in the process of writing it, so it might be changed before then, as I'm not really sure on this one at the moment. But alas, here's some sort of spoiler for you, which may or may not end up in the final edit (who knows)
          
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          “So what? Are you fucking kidding me right now? For fucks sake Ri! You fucking know what. Why are you being like this? Are you actively trying to piss me off?” I proclaimed.
          
          “Being like what? I’m not doing anything” he shrugged, looking away from me.
          
          “And that’s my point! You’re not doing anything. You’re not saying anything. It’s like you’re purposely trying to avoid talking about this! For fucks sake Ri! Your behaviour is so……ugh!” I said, hitting the bed in frustration, making him jump. “If you don’t want to talk about this, why did you stay? Why did you stay and then drop that bombshell on me yesterday if you don’t want to talk about it, to sort this out? You might as well just go back to ignoring me” I sighed, frustrated.
          
          “Because I missed you. Because I wanted….I want to be here for you like I should have been when you needed me. Because I need you too” he admitted.

It's new chapter day! Wahooo. It's finally time for the boys to talk to each other, but what's going to happen? Oooh. Find out later 

Happy Sunday folks!  Well, Stayville is currently on fire thanks to a certain Seo Changbin and THAT revelation. How are we all? Enjoying the floor, just like I am? I'm so proud of him for feeling confident enough to do that. It just shows how far he has come. We love you Binnie ❤️❤️❤️
          
          Anyway, in the spirit of revelations.... its Spoiler Sunday. And someone else this week has his own revelation to share. It's finally time, the beginning of what's to come. Are you ready for it?
          
          Here's a sneak peak of the next chapter....
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          The silence between us was deafening, as we both stared at each other from opposite ends of the bed. My brain was too busy trying to process his confession. Meanwhile, he looked back at me like his next breath was dependent on my answer.
          
          "Did I finally manage to stun you into silence for the first time in existence? Say something, anything. Please" he pleaded.
          
          It took me a couple of seconds to find my voice. "You're serious?' I asked in disbelief. 
          
          "Of course I'm fucking serious. You think I'd joke about this?"

It new chapter day wahoooo.  Are we ready for a Ri POV today?