After a lot of thinking, i decided to stop my writing here... Not actually ending, i'm just temporarily stopping this writing things, but i don't know when i'm going to come back or will i ever come back? And i hope you lovelies understand my situation.
After my father's death,my mental health decreased a lot. Now i can not even control my emotions or react to a situation accordingly. I am not having appetite, i am not sleeping well,i am not fine, i'm just masking all my pain and pang with my gummy smiles. I cannot feel myself anymore. I have been through so many things in just a blink – dad left me,i lost the friendship with my best friend, i scored bad, i got hate and rude words from my own relatives, i heard many disappointing words from my most favourite teachers and many more. Now i came so far that i almost forgot sharing and Ohh a new achievement! Trust issues and panick attacks. Everyone is complaining against me and the saddest part is i can't even make them understand my situation and my points.
What an irony! Once i used to lose my temper easily and say rude words to people out of anger,now they are saying back. And i think i deserve it? I regret.
Ahh yes,, if i have said anything wrong or made you feel uncomfortable, please pardon me for that. I'm extremely sorry! And in case if you haven’t heard this, so listen, you are such a nice person... You're doing great,you are great! Your efforts matter,your emotions matter,your progress matters. Do not let any negative word stop you,always be the best of whatever you want. May Allah almighty give you the strength to overcome every struggle and hardship of your life. And may you be among the successful people. Just keep going, I love you all.❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
And request to you,please eat well,sleep tight and smile. We should follow Sunnah right? Okay lovelies, take care of yourselves and keep me in your prayers.
Allah Hafeez everyone!❤️
- Your depressed author,Swarno:)
