Jess

Moving day is today

Just gonna cúrl up and cry 

I can't think of a reason to get the fuck out of bed
          Curtains closed, lights are off, am I alive or dead?
          I haven't shaved in a week, I always slur when I speak
          Tolerance at its peak, another fifth just to sleep
          Oh, woe is me, woe is me, I guess I need love
          Hoes, you see, hoes, you see, I'm just in a rut
          And I swear I'm trying, baby, please, baby, don't leave
          Goddamn, I'm a fuck up, but I guess that's just me
          So I sit in my room and I cry in my bed
          Thinking about all the shit that made me wrong in my head
          I keep trying to climb, but it seems so steep
          Pour myself a fucking whiskey and go back to sleep, bitch
          
          How I feel

Guess who has a cold haha it's me I do

Hey guys so you might notice a link in my bio now that is the link to my newly created Instagram account that is souly for you guys to ask me questions about books and or other questions just questions in general and for updates on my books of course 

hiii Jess, I was wondering if you would check out my apply fic, Ik last time we were making one but I ended up deleting it. hopefully it won’t be the case this time. thx Jess, lots of love to you <3

It's been 5 years today mom.... God it hurts so much that I don't have you here. God I hate July overall cause I know in 20 days will mark 17 years since daddy's been gone I love you so much mom....

As much as I hate to do this I will not be updating I am not in a good headspace here lately and have constant headaches my anxiety has gotten worse and so has my depression 

Ok I have decided on a set schedule with my co writer um due to total drama sex talk being almost over it will not be ok this schedule the schedule will change once I finish a book and start new ones but this is so I can focus on the books I have 
          Sunday- Watching Miraculous 8 PM EST
          Monday- Watching Miraculous 8 PM EST 
          Tuesday - Watching Miraculous/Total Drama oneshots  8 PM EST
          Wednesday- Watching Miraculous/Harry Potter Presents: Tom Riddle And The True Dark Lord 8 PM EST 
          Thursday- Watching Miraculous/ Total Drama oneshots 8 PM EST 
          Friday- Watching Miraculous/ "Harry Potter Presents: Tom Riddle And The True Dark Lord" 8 PM EST 
          Saturday- Watching Miraculous 8 PM EST 

I fucking swear that I care, but it's hard when you stare
          Into the bottom of a bottle that is empty and bare
          Oh, my desolate soul in my desolate home
          It's my desolate role, yeah, I'm here all alone
          I can't think of a reason to get the fuck out of bed
          Curtains closed, lights are off, am I alive or dead?
          I haven't shaved in a week, I always slur when I speak
          Tolerance at its peak, another fifth just to sleep
          Oh, woe is me, woe is me, I guess I need love
          Hoes, you see, hoes, you see, I'm just in a rut
          And I swear I'm trying, baby, please, baby, don't leave
          Goddamn, I'm a fuck up, but I guess that's just me
          So I sit in my room and I cry in my bed
          Thinking about all the shit that made me wrong in my head
          I keep trying to climb, but it seems so steep
          Pour myself a fucking whiskey and go back to sleep, bitch
          I watch my mama cry, she says "baby why?"
          I say "baby died, baby's gone like a suicide
          I don't think you'll see him soon, Mom, stay out my room, Mom
          Tell Daddy that I hate that motherfucker like you, Mom"
          These beers keep getting warmer every time that I hold 'em
          I pour this out for you like a partner in crime
          It's part of the times when you're sick in the mind
          Yeah, I'm sick, oh, so sick, I'm so sick of this shit
          Yeah, I'm lit, oh, so lit, I'm so fucked up off it
          So I stumble around till I stumble fall down
          Into this puddle of my tears laying here on the ground
          When you've got nothing left, you've got nothing left to lose
          With my last, this single breath, I'll still be singing to you
          So when you bury me, man, you better bury me deep
          And sing along to this song 'cause you're broken like me
          'Cause I don't wanna be like this
          
          How I feel today