Jeuniesse

Wait my fic turned a year old

Jeuniesse

I cant believe I survived this school year. 3 attempts and yet I'm here. I cant believe this. All those nights of breakdowns, nights I thought would be my last, and here I am. Its nice yet painful. I'm happy sometimes, but I still feel like the best option would be if I was just gone. Everyone has it terrible yet here I am, making it a bigger issue than it should be. I have everything a person could need to be happy yet I'm still being a whiny bitch simply because I can't get a proper diagnosis for anything. My cousin asked me if I SH and I left her on read. Idk what to say or do. I'm just pissed off but tbh I love Pip he just makes me feel so happy he's the reason I'm here rn tbh. Anyway I hopefully will finish TOO soon and maybe get back to the sta fic. Maybe. I'm rn writing a new fic but its gonna be ao3 exclusive hehehe. Bai!!

Jeuniesse

@silentxstream hehehehe sure ;)) I actually have an unfinished Sandball mini fic maybe I could finish it :))) (it's them with SB Jr)
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silentxstream

@Jeuniesse Oh I totally get that! I write too sometimes but then I lose motivation so quickly  
            I would love to see some Sandy x Snowball if possible! It's probably my favourite ship and there's none of it out there anywhere  I also love Banavi too so I would be happy with that :D 
            Really I'm happy with any STA content tbh
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Jeuniesse

@silentxstream Heheheheh hello fellow STA fan! Ty for checking up on my and I do have ideas to continue the STA fic but I just need to get the energy to do it lols :') if u want, u can request something and I'll try to get myself to do it hehehehe :333
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Jeuniesse

happy pride month everyone!!! I'm so happy to announce this is the second pride month I get to celebrate :DDD hbu tell me your labels? Mine are: pansexual, genderfuid, aroflux, and demisexual. My pronouns are they/them and she/her but my neopronouns are iel/iels, cobweb/cobwebs, and cats/catself. (Neopronouns btw u can keep using they/she) Also I might've not said it before but I'm otherpaw! Specifically, I feel closer to cats than anything :333 so yeah XDDDDDD it feels so damn good to not be homophobic anymore <:)))))

Jeuniesse

@Pip_1415 HEHEHHE PEAK POOKIE XDDDD ILYYY!!!
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Pip_1415

@Jeuniesse haiii luv *im libramasc n omnisexual orineted to non-cis-male they/he* but i guess u know already hehe i'm kinda doubting  if i might use neopronouns or otherkins lolz HAPPI PRIDE MONTHHH
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Jeuniesse

this message may be offensive 
Welp... 6 month have gone to waste. People truly do go back to their roots, don't they? I never liked myself, I just convinced myself I did. But now, I realized something: it is in my best interest to die. The only thing holding me back is risking some people going with me and cuz I wanna see tengolf canon. I feel like I'm going down that rabbit hole again, except I don't believe the rope exists anymore. No therapy worked: all therapists assume I'm just going through an angsty teen phase and anxiety. Let's see how they say on my grave, if I get one. If God does exist, I hope he burns me in hell for "leaving" him. Because if he considers abandonment as trying to erase yourself from existence, then fuck him. I have more love for the people I like than he offers his people. I thought it would get better, it actually was, until it didn't. I hope I can finish my fics before going. But I can't promise. Heck, I hope I even finish writing my suicide letters before doing it. I'm so sorry for anyone I will fail.

TealEraStories

@Jeuniesse Inshallah my dear
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Jeuniesse

@TealEraStories okayyyy :/// I hope I'll see u sooner than expected <:')
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TealEraStories

@Jeuniesse No...I'm sorry, for my safety and yours, I'll need to lay low till further notice, but I PROMISE, I'll come back. Promise ,:>
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