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Motivation has been slow, I don't want to just entirely stop working on the fic, cause I do want to work on it. I'm just really struggling with motivation for it rn. Plus, hsr addiction going brrrrr and I just discovered Webtoon like 2 weeks ago or smthn.
          I am trying to get myself to write though, even though I am possibly slipping out of the twst fandom T^T I want to stay, there's so much I wanna do with it. But updates are prbably going to be around once a month unless I can fix this up on myself. But I seriously appreciate all the attention my fic has gotten, and I want to keep it going with all my readers. It had always initially been an oc I hadn't named, but I figured it'd be better if I just changed her into the reader instead.
          But stuff is hard, and I finally got to the holidays, meaning six weeks of free time unless I actually do get forced into the awful life of juggling a job with school and extra curricular activities, plus a relationship. I'm still going to try and write and get chapters out though, even if I take a long time.

Whoever labeled the 16th birthday as "sweet" or "super," is a liar.
          
          I had no "sweet 16" or "super 16," instead I had a shitty 16. No birthday, no nothing; the one bday pres I got of twst stickers got stolen, I have to fail the goals I was forced to set by my case manager, forced to fail homework for maths, forced to miss out on a English Literature assessment because my device privileges at school were revoked, I'm grounded for 2 weeks, I get to miss out on beating up juniors at the school event, I had to miss out on the petting school for wellbeing day, I don't get to preform at the royal show. My life has gone to absolute hell in 6 days because I refused to go to an assembly that blabbers on about stuff I hear almost EVERY SINGLE DAY on how to fit in with society if you have a sort of disability. I hate my life rn

Achem, achem. Excuse me..
          
          
          Dearest jewel of my eyes.
          
          You’ve been oh, so kind with recent updates and so on, to the point of becoming one of my main inspirations for my own story. For that thy must thank you. I plead with the deepest part of my willful heart that you stay safe and strong for years to come, and for will what may. As does the pleasure of your book fills my mind, do stay healthy as unnecessary overworking can cause destruction. Especially in one’s literature.
          
          Of course, please stay diligent in your writing. Although I have given my pleasantries, that was not thy intention nor purpose in this transcript. Thy would like to inform you of the presence of my own literature that was recently published. If you do dare to recall, and if your mind abides by it. On the website Ao3. long..long ago I had commented a story idea that thy was minding on writing.
          
          And as thee can see, it has been made possible. (If you literally can’t remember. It’s a fem reader twst book with Crowley being the MCs uncle) although I do not hope you’ll read it, (pls don’t) thy would be embarrassed about such things..
          
          Thy merely came to one’s attention to give a rightful thank you. For being the dearest inspiration, And such cause for the brilliant idea.
          
          Thank you.
          
                                                                         In good heath and wished from,
          
                                                                                                                           A dear admirer. 
          
                                                                                                                                               Lumi.

Next chapter should be out in less than a week. Please note, SHOULD, not guaranteed. I'm trying. Almost hit 4k words though ;-;
          Just been focused on trying to get Lilia beach outfit (got on pull 100 with Cater dorm ssr and Lil's dorm ssr on pull 80, my luck returned :>) Plus school been being a MASSIVE pain and cps is terrifying. Also, hsr addiction is fueled like no joke. I wanna be at Penacony already T^T LEMME SEE MY MANSSSSSS I TRY'N TO AVOID AS MANY SPOILERS AS I CAN FOR THEM BUT IT'S A STRUGGLEEEE T^T

I'm so sorry chapters are being delayed further, I'm gonna have no internet and I'm bouta go into the possible hell hole of me calling kids help line and having child protection services contacted over the shit my little brother is doing to me (please not he is 11 and is the cause for this)

It's getting a bit harder to write now, cause school is picking up in difficulty :/
          
          Also, ADHD is being such a pain in writing. Like, I wanna write and I have so many ideas I can put down, but the motivation refuses to show up.
          
          On that though, I was off at an all girls camp and that's when writing motivation hit me. Literally when I had no access to devices for a couple of days. So, luckily enough, we had been given journals to write in, which me being me, did not journal inside the journal and instead tried to write. And oopsie daisy, accidentally drafted up small ideas for future moments in the book.
          
          So, if you guys want a special chapter with those draft ideas in it, just lemme know. Although be prepared for some rather, mildly spicy stuff in a few. (IGNORE THE FIRST PERSON ON LILIA ONES IF SO, I DIDN'T MEAN TO DRAFT THOSE ANYWAYS, THEY WEREN'T MEANT TO BE AN ORIGINAL STORY THAT TURNED INTO A DRAFTED SELF-INDULGENCE)

So, I'm still working on the chapter, it's taking a bit of time though, I'm at the 2.3k word mark. Problem is, I am physically unable to consume anything, my body is rejecting it and I hate it. All I can handle is a small cup worth of soup and it takes me 2 hours to drink that.
          
          Been like this for a week now, I'm consistently sleeping and my mother finally got me checked out by a doctor because she's getting fed up about how much I keep chucking the food back up. So, turns out I either have ovarian cyst ruptures or appendicitis. TvT

WOOOOOOO! EXAMS ARE OVER AND I FINALLY HAVE TIME TO MYSELF ONCE MORE (not that I didn't procrastinate everything to the last minute, literally staying up till 2am to redo my entire house on animal crossing on my ds from when I was 7 on the day of my math exam which I needed to do revision for and write up my notes sheet)
          
          Welp, time to continue working on the marshmallow's chapter :>

New chapter out on Sweet At First Glance on ao3 and will be here when I can get my laptop, so within today or tomorrow

So uhm, a writing contest I entered last year is doing another this year, and I'm in complete shock. The overall prize last year $13k but this year it's $50k due to how popular it got.
          
          So, chapters may be a little more delayed than usual as I plan to write up something for this contest, although I still gotta figure out how to turn my other writing comp entry into a pdf before the end up May. Plus, submissions end August 12 so I got time to procrastinate this a bit.