hi. i know it's been a long time. i'm sorry i just disappeared like that, but i needed to for my mental health. my heart is so warm that all of you have been worried, i am also apologetic now. i truly apologize. i have depression, and at the time everything was just too much, too overwhelming. i have an announcement that may make a few of you disappointed, maybe even angry - i no longer stan bts. just because their style of music completely changed, and i don't support a lot of the decisions they've made for a while. bts was a safe place for me, comfort, for a long time, and i will always be grateful, but i no longer call myself an army. i also will no longer be writing gay fanfictions. i have been a christian the whole time i have been writing, and God just really spoke to me and i got convicted, which was another reason i left without notice - it had become an addiction, and i needed to quit, cold turkey. but i want to tell you that i'm doing great. i went to therapy to deal with a lot of my past. depression isn't something that goes away, i still have it and always will, but i'm doing good, now, i can deal with it now. i'm okay. thank you so much to all those who have waited for me, y'all are the real ones.