Jiminliet
;’) I love you so much thank you
Jiminliet
Jiminliet
My dad has decided that we’re going to play Uno tonight, this will not end well :)
Jiminliet
TW: suicide.
Yesterday, I found out that a very close friend of mine took his life. I’m not really sure how to deal with it.
He struggled with so much but I genuinely thought he’d be able to pull through, he went to therapy regularly and bit by bit you could see him feeling lighter and happier. We frequently talked about our troubles and I genuinely believed in him. I felt so sure that he was capable of reaching happiness. Things seemed like they were on the road to getting somewhat better for him; I guess I was wrong.
I miss him so much. He had so much to say, so many things he wanted to accomplish, a dream he was working hard to fulfil; it breaks my heart knowing that he couldn’t reach his goals.
He was the friend that you could count on to make you happy. The friend that always made you laugh.
I still can’t fully wrap my head around the fact that he’s gone, I’ll never see him again, never hug him again, never talk to him again. I want to see him so badly. I can’t imagine what he must have felt, I only hope that he is now at peace.
I miss him so much and I will miss him every day. I wholeheartedly wish he didn’t go down this route and talked to someone first, but deep down, I’m somewhat for lack of better term, happy for him. I know that he’s now at peace. As morbid as it may sound, we talked about what we’d like to become after we die, we’d both like to become stars, so I’ll continue to admire him. just now I’ll be quite far from him as he shines in our night sky, as beautiful as ever. I love him and I will miss him. I can’t wait to see him again one day. Until then, I’ll continue to watch him from my window.
I’m sorry that this is quite a heavy thing to read through and I am also sorry if I sounded quite strange, I’m still rather dazed and this is how I’m dealing with it I guess. Things have honestly been awful. I just can’t believe he’s actually like gone gone you know? I miss him so much.
Bangtan_ARMY_419
@Jiminliet thanks. I appreciate you too. Don't worry, I'm not much good at finding the right words to say either.
Jiminliet
@Bangtan_ARMY_419 I’m so sorry for you losses, I’m not good at saying things in times like this but I hope you’re doing good, or if not good then okay at least. Same goes to you to, I can’t promise I’ll be able to give good advise or reply on time haha but I’m willing to listen and just let you vent if you need to; thank you for continuing to reach out, I really appreciate you
Bangtan_ARMY_419
@Jiminliet honestly, not to be a copycat, but my mental health has also been down. And you don't need to apologize for anything. You did absolutely nothing wrong. My friends always get mad about how often I apologize too so it's understandable. Lots of stuff with my family has been going on and today is the 3year anniversary of my uncle's death. But I'm trying to get by, and I am glad I have friends to talk to about it. You can always come talk to me if you need to. 2020 has also just really sucked and my cousin died a month ago today and stuff. It sucks a lot but we'll get through this.
Jiminliet
this message may be offensive
Not a bright topic but I had my first therapy session today.
It felt nice to talk about things, even if I couldn’t bring myself to say everything. I’m looking forward to one day being able to actually accept what happened. And that it’s okay now and I am safe.
I hope that whoever reads this is safe and happy and well.
I don’t want anyone to ever feel like they’re not worth anything; I know this is easier said than done but please talk to people, reach out to people and if they don’t listen they’re not for you.
People are out there who care about you and want to listen to you. I’m not saying that talking makes the issue go away but I swear it feels so much fucking better.
Please take care, you’re loved and needed so fucking much; I hope you’re okay.
Lots of love
- Jiminliet ❤️
Jiminliet
@SUJU_Shawol thank you❤️ I’m also so sorry that this reply is like 5 days later, just been taking a lot of time offline
Jiminliet
It was my birthday yesterday! I have officially reached 19 years of age haha! :))) I hope you’re all safe and happy at home! ❤️
Jiminliet
Okay Uni has been stressing me out, but I just finished my documentary video project and honestly I’m really proud of it, it looks so good! This is weird, I’m never proud of anything I do so I’m super happy that I like this! :))))
Jiminliet
Awww you’re genuinely the sweetest! I honestly love seeing that you’ve replied to my ramblings; thank you for listening and ily very much! ❤️
Jiminliet
University is making my life so much harder than it needs to be :(
Jiminliet
Merry Christmas my loves! I hope you all have a wonderful day!❤️
Jiminliet
Hi! I fully forgot to update y’all on how life’s going (not that I needed to or anyone cares) but life’s going pretty ok rn. I got an A in my Photography a-level! So umm I’m going to University! Overall, I’ve been great, mainly using the summer to focus on my health and relationships with my family and friends. I’ve been writing a lot and am close to finishing a few books I’ve been working on (unless I have a weird but wonderful plot twist in mind at 3am). I’m really looking forward to being and active writer again, it’s exiting! Knowing that I’m sharing something that I truly love and have sown so much time and effort into perfecting. Anyways, I hope whoever reads this is ok, I hope life treats you well! That’s all for now, until next time~ ❤️
Jiminliet
IT IS A-LEVEL RESULTS DAY TODAY AND I DO NOT WANT TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT! T-T