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I lived bitch 

You are loved. Remember that. Take the time to heal and take care of yourself. ♥️

I got a first!?!?? For my uni project?!??? I’m?!???

Something happy haha I have officially reached 20 years of age :) 

TW: depression, mention of suicide. 
          
          So I guess I need to vent a little? I’ve been bottling up a lot of thoughts lately and my therapist was like that’s a big no no so yeah… I’ve been formally diagnosed with depression now and am taking medications and attending regular therapy. It’s so weird, I feel guilty. Like I shouldn’t be like this, like I should’ve known better; I’m supposed to be better than this. I’ve been told time and time again that depression doesn’t make me weak and that there’s no shame in needing help, but I can’t help but feel like I should have been able to control myself; one trip to A&E and boom I am being labelled as suicidal and depressed. I hate it, it feels like I’m sick but I don’t feel sick (sometimes anyway). Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be back to who I was a few years ago, that happy go lucky person who seems so foreign now. I hope I can get better soon, I’m trying my hardest but it is really difficult. The medications are helping but they are also not at the same time, little suppressants I take when things get really bad, but it never goes away; just puts the bad things on pause. I try not to take them as much as possible it sometimes the thoughts are so damn loud, it physically hurts. I think this helped, it felt good to type it all out, to whoever, if anyone ever reads this, I am so sorry. 

Happy new year my dudes, hopefully 2021 is marginally better than the hot mess 2020 was :)

So I just binge watched The Mandalorian (finally got around to watching it haha) and oh boy I can feel the immanent obsession hitting me like a ton of bricks 

My dad has decided that we’re going to play Uno tonight, this will not end well :) 

Happy holidays everyone! I hope that you’re all safe and happy and most importantly I hope you all have a wonderful day filled with lots of love and joy! ❤️✨

So therapy is 10/10 would highly recommend. I’ve been getting a lot better at communicating how I feel and what I can do to help that, not completely on the road to betterment yet but I’m getting better one baby step at a time haha. 
          2020 has sucked for so many reasons but this tiny achievement has made it a little better :) 
          Hope whoever reads this is doing well, I hope you are safe and happy! 
          Happy holidays! ❤️