JoKleiss

idk if anyone will care
          	BUT
          	I am in fact still alive
          	and going to therapy, it's going good, just surviving
          	have a nice day <3

0just0be0yourself0

@JoKleiss yayy! All the best, Sweetie. I'm here extremely rarely these days, but I'm glad you're okay. Sending you much hugs! <3<3
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JoKleiss

@jawnscoffee awwwww
          	  thank you for the cookies
          	  here some tea or coffee to eat them with :3
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JoKleiss

@Ih34RtK4Rma thank u <3
          	  and good to know ur still alive :3
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JoKleiss

idk if anyone will care
          BUT
          I am in fact still alive
          and going to therapy, it's going good, just surviving
          have a nice day <3

0just0be0yourself0

@JoKleiss yayy! All the best, Sweetie. I'm here extremely rarely these days, but I'm glad you're okay. Sending you much hugs! <3<3
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JoKleiss

@jawnscoffee awwwww
            thank you for the cookies
            here some tea or coffee to eat them with :3
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JoKleiss

@Ih34RtK4Rma thank u <3
            and good to know ur still alive :3
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turtely

heyyy i havent heard from you in a while! how are you??

turtely

@JoKleiss haha you're sweet <3
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JoKleiss

@turtely  I'm rooting for u (~‾▿‾)~
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turtely

@JoKleiss sure <3
            
            meh... i'll survive 
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JoKleiss

little question:
          would any of y'all be interested in a mini italian lesson, either in pms or here. About anything, I'll try to answer in my limits
          
          I will try to do swear words, but there are so many in Italian that I don't know if they have a corresponding one in English
          
          sooooo, meh, have a nice day <3

JoKleiss

@Ih34RtK4Rma  no worries, I'm not going to pressure u into it 
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JoKleiss

@Ih34RtK4Rma  pfffff, it's not graded or anything, it's just if you have curiosities about it so something :3
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JoKleiss

oh well, today it seems I'm taking myself out, cos nobody is freeee
          why, I just don't understand *slams head on desk*
          HAVE A NICE DAY Y'ALL <3

JoKleiss

@0just0be0yourself0  I WISH YOU'D BE ABLE, but hem nu, sadly ಥ‿ಥ
            
            thanks, and hope u had a nice day too <3
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turtely

@0just0be0yourself0 aahhhahaha i love it! xD
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0just0be0yourself0

@JoKleiss  I CAN go out with you *flutters eyelashes*
            
            Man, I'm so sorry, I'm just kidding, just kidding...
            
            (Look what you made me into, @turtely ...)
            
            All the love to you sweetieee! Have a nice day as well :))
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JoKleiss

I said I'd return
          HAHAHA
          that was a lie
          
          I am active and reading a lot here, but I can't update anything because at school they're trying to kill me with tests.
          plus it's been pretty hard mentally in the last period of time, did some bs here and there, but meh
          
          other than this, remember that I luv u all, and to have a wonderful day/night <3

JoKleiss

@0just0be0yourself0  school is absolute sh!t -_-;
            and thank you, much love and strength to u too, sending u lots of hugs <33
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0just0be0yourself0

@JoKleiss  All the best to you, Sweetie! School is tough, I can relate to the struggle ://. Much love and courage and health! <3<3<3
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JoKleiss

I just realised something:
          
          when studying the war of Troy non-italian students are pretty chill about it.
          
          meanwhile, Italian students laugh a lot when studying it simply because of its name.
          
          basically, Troy in Italian is Troia, and troia in Italian means whore 
          
          now you know something new ✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧

JoKleiss

@RhuBlack  vjdupsjdosos
            it must have been wild 
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RhuBlack

lol. It was absolutely insane, and it took us some time to realise what was going on.
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JoKleiss

coa it would need two ts, sooo
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JoKleiss

have I disappeared?
          yes
          am I sorry for it?
          yesn't
          
          I am so physically and mentally drained I don't care. My cat was sick. I relapsed. My mother is taking away my phone. I have a lot of joint pain.
          
          But on the bright side:
          I facetimed for the first time with a friend, and planning to do more. Met another friend, and he is so lovely. Cat is well now. I am 1 day clean.
          
          Will I be returning?
          wait and see...
          
          (I will ,slowly, don't worry :3)

JoKleiss

@jawnscoffee  yeah I'm taking it slow, cos I know my mental health would be affected by it. But I have a wonderful friend who is helping me. And my blood test results will be coming in either tomorrow, or the day after.
            Sending you lots of love, take care and stay safe <3
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jawnscoffee

@JoKleiss i'm sorry you're having such a tough time right now. Don't worry tho about returning as fast as possible, the most important thing is that you'll feel better soon. Also all the best to you and sending all the courage and strength you need <3
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JoKleiss

@PhantasiaWriter  I don't know, the results will be coming out next week, so I'll see 
            ans thank u :3
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JoKleiss

thre are days on which I think that I don't need and/or deserve a mobility aid since I'm all fine.
          And then there's days like today in which my joint pain (knee today) is killing me, and I would beg for an orthopedic cane (dunno how u call it) or a stroller 

JoKleiss

@0just0be0yourself0  I know I need it, but self doubt is really hard to overcome, and it's a constant thing for me since I most likely have anxiety, amd with my parents that didn't believe harlf the things I do or say it hasn't made the situation easier.
            Yeah I know, I am actually suspecting that all those joint pain are because of all the trauma/mental illness/disabilities I have, and it all adds on. Cos it can't be due to excessive exercise cos I don't do any of that, and this has been going on for a year, but recently (3/4 months) it got worse.
            As always thank u so much luv <3
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0just0be0yourself0

@JoKleiss  love, darling, sweetie
            Of course you do deserve help in your problems and physical pain is a really important sign to get one! I know the situation is not easy and your contact with parents is bad. But are you sure there's no way to overcome that somehow? I was taught that ANY physical pain means your body is trying to tell you something. Like, when your head hurts, you should drink some water, because it's a sign of dehydration. Or when you break your arm, it hurts to show you that bone is damaged and you should move it as little as possible. 
            I know it may sound silly or obvious, but what I'm trying to say is, try to understand what your body is telling you in a way to be able to help it.
            Much much love and strength! Be well and take care! ♡♡♡
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JoKleiss

when your cat is stupid and eats aloe vera (from the plants we have) and now you've got to confort him as he has cramps and is meowing like and alarm
          this stupid mf really... 

JoKleiss

@RhuBlack  thanks mate, tbh I think he'll be home either this night, or tomorrow, everything depends on the call my parents will receive this evening from the clinic
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RhuBlack

@JoKleiss ouch! I am so sorry mate . I hope it does not go on for much longer like that,
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JoKleiss

@RhuBlack  basically he's still at the clinic, and he was operated yesterday cos they found what he ate (aloe vera) that was stuck in his intestines. They are trying to restart the normal stomach contractions, but for now no success.
            The main problem ia the cost, and we reached 750 euros in two days, which is bad
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JoKleiss

when none of your friends can hang out with you because of school, so you just decide to hang out with your brother 
          
          I have been wanting to go out with him tbh, so he can show me all the good places in Venice. Like the bay area, where there is no one, and it's beautiful
          
          And, enjoy a few drinks with him, s!hit talking out parents

JoKleiss

@turtely  aw that's so sweet, but yeah I agree, I killed my feet walking around for 4 hours, but it was worth it
            also had a drink which was amazing, we didn't tell our parents tho cos it had alcohol in it
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turtely

sometimes family is the only friend you need ♥︎
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