Unemployed Hoe

TEST TOMORROW NOOOOO D:<
          
          
          
          
          ALSO I FINISHED BOBETTE MASTERY SO I OFFICIALLY HAVE EVERY TOONS MASTERY IN THE GAME!! YAYYYY

My tummy hurts but I refuse to eat any fucking food because the thought of food makes me want to throw up even more.

I felt sick so I couldn't go to school :(
          
          
          
          Also my stupid older brother got into another fucking fight.
          
          A family with LOTS of problems :(

I don't feel so good. I wanna just.
          
          Hopefully Choke on my own puke and end it there to be honest.
          
          
          

I remember this time back in my old school, I joined in the middle of the school year, and I joined a band class, and I only stayed for 2 days before getting switched out.
          
          Mostly because kids were literally always fighting. And some kid apparently hit another kid with a flute so bad the flute broke and the kids parents had to pay the fee.
          
          
          
          
          
          D:

WAIT. I FINISHED MY ART COMMISSIONS SHOULD I SHOW-??

It's not like they'd care if I did 'it'.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          May-
          
          Mental health awareness month.
          
          
          
          :)
          
          
          
          I know I'll be the savior to end my own suffering.. it's only a matter of time.

I wish I was someone's first choice.
          
          I wish I was smarter.
          
          I wish I wasn't the way I was.
          
          I wish I could go back and fix my mistakes.
          
          I wish someone cared enough to know when I was sad.
          
          I wish my suffering in this cruel life would end.
          
          Please. End my suffering.
          
          How much longer?
          
          I was so close to crying and having a mental breakdown in class. 
          
          To the point I had to wet them and wipe it off.
          
          Please.
          
          Hold me tight.
          
          Tell me..
          
          
          Tell me I'm good enough. Please?
          
          I wish.. I wish I wish.
          
          
          But it won't come true.
          
          
          Please.. just say you're proud of me.
          
          Please see me as an actual friend and not just a backup friend.
          
          Please.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Please just love me.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          

I JUST REALIZED THAT THE AVERAGE AGE IN MY GRADE SHOULD BE 1 YEAR OLDER THAN I USUALLY AM.
          
          
          ITS BECAUSE I JOINED SCHOOL A YEAR EARLY???
          
          
          LIKE I WAS 5 WHEN I WAS KINDERGARTEN WHEN I SHOULD HAVE BEEN 6 OMLL

Testing on Friday.. :(((