Joel_Smallishbeans7

Being genderfluid f-cking sucks. 
          	
          	I want to look like a man, to pass as one without people taking a second thought. 
          	I want to have a flat chest but then again during my more feminine leaning weeks I wish I was less masculine looking. I'm not masc but not fem looking but I pass as a girl. Which is good some weeks. Others?. It makes me want to cry, scream, yell at the world until it swallows me whole. 
          	Though I can't. 
          	
          	The few friends who know about my genderfluidty either don't ask my pronouns and stick to They/Them (WHICH I'M FINE WITH) or the one friend who does slips up sometimes. I don't blame them, I never would. But it feels so discouraging. 
          	
          	I have friends who follow this account who will probably talk to me about this but at this point I don't care. Rather they talk to me or not about this, this is one of the only ways I can vent easily without feeling selfish. 
          	Thanks for reading <3

Ghostqueenitalian9

@Ghostqueenitalian9 whoops.. my stupid ass thought it was still the weekend.
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Ghostqueenitalian9

@Joel_Smallishbeans7 I'll send irl hugs tomorrow!!!! And, you know you can talk to me right? I know I'm that close to you yet but I want be. I can help you pass as a guy or girl or whatever you want!!! I'm here if you need me
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Joel_Smallishbeans7

Being genderfluid f-cking sucks. 
          
          I want to look like a man, to pass as one without people taking a second thought. 
          I want to have a flat chest but then again during my more feminine leaning weeks I wish I was less masculine looking. I'm not masc but not fem looking but I pass as a girl. Which is good some weeks. Others?. It makes me want to cry, scream, yell at the world until it swallows me whole. 
          Though I can't. 
          
          The few friends who know about my genderfluidty either don't ask my pronouns and stick to They/Them (WHICH I'M FINE WITH) or the one friend who does slips up sometimes. I don't blame them, I never would. But it feels so discouraging. 
          
          I have friends who follow this account who will probably talk to me about this but at this point I don't care. Rather they talk to me or not about this, this is one of the only ways I can vent easily without feeling selfish. 
          Thanks for reading <3

Ghostqueenitalian9

@Ghostqueenitalian9 whoops.. my stupid ass thought it was still the weekend.
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Ghostqueenitalian9

@Joel_Smallishbeans7 I'll send irl hugs tomorrow!!!! And, you know you can talk to me right? I know I'm that close to you yet but I want be. I can help you pass as a guy or girl or whatever you want!!! I'm here if you need me
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EggOnToast123

Which Joel is this? 

Joel_Smallishbeans7

I MET CELINASPOOKYBOO TODAY IRL I'M SCREAMING

Ghostqueenitalian9

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@Joel_Smallishbeans7 NO FUCKING WAY!!! REALY?!??!? OH MY FUCKING GODS!!!!
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Joel_Smallishbeans7

I CAN'T THINK OF THE NAME FOR LIZZIE AND CLEO AS A DUO!! IT'S DRIVING ME INSANE
          
          idek if they have one lol please help

Joel_Smallishbeans7

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! 
          
          (To those who celebrate) 

Ghostqueenitalian9

@Joel_Smallishbeans7 I forgot it was Christmas 
            I don’t celebrate but, merry Christmas!!
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Earth0n3

Merry Christmas 
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Joel_Smallishbeans7

Hot take:
          
          I hate when people number chapters of one shots or normal books, like I'm okay with (example) 
          
          22 - Thunderstorms
          
          Or whatever but not
          
          1
          
          2
          
          Etc. Idk I just want to know what I'll be reading without going into the chapter itself. 

vv_rose08

@Joel_Smallishbeans7 omg no this is not a hot take, surely? It's so dumb, though idk maybe I'm guilty of it but I write oneshots so they don't rlly need numbers??
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Hermit_MultiShipper

I personally don’t do that, instead I think of different plots that would be funny or hilarious or things that would make a good angst plot and that’s what I write for the chapter name lol. Believe me. I am the exact same. 
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Seth_Robins_189

@Joel_Smallishbeans7 you’re fine lol just helping understand
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squeakyfucker

Joel who fo you love more Etho, Lizze or Jim?
          (ALL PLATONIC))

Banananana123456

@squeakyfucker @Joel_Smallishbeans7 (Correct answer is Lizzie. The wife. She will hunt u down if u say wrong thing jsyk)
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