I'm hurting. I'm hurting so much it's the worst pain I've ever felt. I'm all alone it feels and no one notices. I can't even hold it in when I'm at school I just cry when the teacher turns the lights off for a video. I don't have anyone to tell. And even if I did I have even fewer people that'll listen. I wanted to feel pain. I got my ears double pierced. It didn't hurt enough. Not as much as people have been hurting me lately, but I don't want to question it.
I don't even want to think about it just want a pain people see. One that pours out of me in the form of red. I want to bleed. I want them to see how much they hurt me. How much it hurts me.
I'm just...alone. I don't think some people understand that feeling, being alone. I can't talk about it to some people. They have worse problems or bigger things to focus on. Happier things.
I just want god to take it away. The pain. They life. I don't care anymore. I had one thing and everything I prayed for him not to take her, and then he did. At first I remain positive but she doesn't come back. Then when I give up and fail the test as planned, she doesn't come back.
I'm hurting, and no one sees it. Or acknowledges it. I don't plan on anyone to acknowledge this either, and even if they do I don't think it'll do anything. I don't think anyone can fix it, and this is the first thing there isn't a solution to my problem. I guess it's not a problem anymore though, it's just me now. I'm a problem.
