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JUST FOUND OUT ABOUT IMPOSTER. UM I'M DYING. THIS IS LIKE THE BEST DAY EVER. OH MY GOD. 2026 IS OFF TO A GOOD START.

OH MY GOD. HARRY WHAT THE FUCK. I'M SCREAMING.

I started my fundamentals of public speaking class today for dual enrollment (my mother forced me to take it) and I have very bad anxiety with that kind of stuff and I honestly cried three times in the hour and 18 minutes that class lasted. I will not survive until May. wish me luck.

I need new friends. today my best friend (I'm mean to all my friends not just you) told me that the reason he's so much meaner to me is because he knows that no matter what he says or does I'll always come back to him. it made me think about a lot and I realized all my friends are horrible.

I have had welcome to la playing on repeat for over an hour and my mother now knows all the words. I am proud. it's my favorite song by mtm.

i love my friend. she knows how much I love Harry so she started playing watermelon sugar in the car for me. OH MY GOD SHE JUST STARTED PLAYING WMYB FOR ME! I'M MARRYING HER.

I can not wait to move out and get away from my family. every time I says something about a part of my body hurting my grandfather is like "you need to lose weight." last night I said something about my shoulders hurting and he goes "you're out of shape. you need to lose weight. I'm gonna get you a gym membership for your birthday." um sir why are you saying this shit to your teenage granddaughter? you're really helping my confidence. you're making my eating disorder so much better. thanks for making me want to eat even less than I already do. I already hate everything about myself so thank you for making it worse. they all have been doing this for years. since I was about 9.

merry Christmas to those who celebrate. I hope you all had an amazing day.

"I'm gonna put a bowl on your head and cut it. you're gonna look like Will Byers."- my mum

I'm listening to olivia rodrigo and I just remembered something that my ex said to me when we were together that should have been an immediate res flag. there were so many. but anygays I was listening to get him back while I was on the phone with him and he said "I don't like you listening to that song because it's about going back to your ex" like hoe what is you on? since when do you get to make decisions for me? also HE WAS LITERALLY MY EX THAT I WENT BACK TO
          I hate his ass
          anygays that's my rant for today