To all of my followers:
I send this message as more of a way to vent than anything. There's something I need to get off my chest, and I feel like this is the only place I can really talk about it. I'm guessing you guys follow me because you love Zootopia as much as I do. That's what this is mainly about.
I've struggled with depression for most of my life. The best way I can explain it is that, for long periods of time, I feel a crushing sadness for no apparent reason. When Zootopia came out, I felt oddly drawn toward it. It struck a very strong emotional cord with me, and I almost immediately became very attached to the characters of Nick and Judy.
Before long, Zootopia became my escape from reality. It was an ideal place with ideal people I loved that I could escape to in times of pain. But now it's become almost an addiction. I can't get enough material--fanart, fanfiction, the movie itself, even my own story. All of it makes me feel happier while I experience it, but it hurts when it's done. I'm coming to the end of a great fanfic, and it hurts. I hurt so much and I don't understand it. I don't get why I feel this way about Nick and Judy. I know it's weird, but it's like I'm in platonic love with both of them. All I know is that Zootopia and Disney music are some of the only things that help me, and only temporarily. It's hard for me to find joy in anything anymore.
I'm not sure what I'm looking for by posting this. I'm not sure about anything anymore. I just needed to say this.
If anyone here believes in God, I ask for your prayers. If you don't I guess there's nothing I can ask for except kind words.
Thank you all. It means a lot to me that anyone even reads my story. I hope you all have a great day.