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Guys uhm im going through phsycosis and im spiralling VERY BAD. Uh so im gonna break up w you because im genuinly gwtting so bad, I'm being SA'd again and going through trauma again and its getting so bad that i started to have panic attacks like i was before i met you, my hypersexuality is getting way worse and unfortantly ive returned to proshipping (i dont post it publicly, i find that odd..) becajse i genuinly cant get help and everytime i try to ask for it i literally get beaten or just yelled at. Theres a high chance my dad is gonna get full custody and im experiencing way more nightmares then usual, im having fantasies that i dont want to and its just getting to the point where im craving to be abused again and it sucks. I also already like someone else and i domt want to hurt you or anything, and i dont want you to be the responsibility for my fucked up actions or anything. I dont want you to see what I'm like during phsycosis or anything like that, because genuinly i get so much worse then I was. Im literally getting physically violent with people and got introuble with the police. My dad started to SA me again and my friends are being weird to me at school, i have no access to meds or therapy anymore, and my parents dont comfort me and I dont want to do anything or say anything to you that I will regret, im trying to protect you from myself and when im stable ill most likely talk to you more again, i really hope that this phsycotic episode doesnt turn into mania, im just getting way worse again