Jsttryingtosurvive

Hurt
          You hurt me
          Kicked me as hard as you can
          That is wrong
          But maybe you got your anger from me
          Or your temper
          If so, im sorry
          But either way
          You hurt me
          All
          Because
          Of a
          Lipgloss
          How silly
          Or maybe not
          Thats up to you
          But mom didn't even care 
          She yelled at me
          Because I was looking for the lipgloss in your room
          Which makes no sense
          Because you hurt me
          But whatever I guess
          But you hurt me
          Hurt me to the point where I couldn't breathe properly 
          I was on the floor
          Crying
          Screaming
          In pain
          "Your being overdramatic"
          Thats what my mom said
          Bitch
          Shut up because you have no clue what was happening
          Oops, sorry for cursing
          No im not
          But whatever
          My sister hurt me today
          But im stronger
          Im standing now
          Im breathing 
          Im alive
          Sure doesnt feel like it
          But I am 
          So I guess thats what matters
          
          
          New poem!

Alone 
          I am alone
          I dont know why
          Maybe its the summer
          This summer feels long already 
          Im only a little over a week in
          And im bored
          I want to go somewhere
          My camps arnt for a while
          So im just sitting here 
          Waiting
          Waiting to see my bestfriend
          Waiting to see the person I talk to everyday about my feelings
          Waiting to borrow a poetry book from that person 
          Waiting to see my aunt I wont see till fall break
          Waiting to see my grandpa I wont see until next Saturday 
          Im just waiting
          Waiting for the day im able to go swimming whenever I want
          I need to stop waiting
          Because if I continue waiting and not speaking up about what I want to do
          Then this will be a very boring summer 
          Im alone because I havnt made plans
          Im alone because i wont let people into my life
          Im alone because I have chosen to rot in bed watching Grey's anatomy and avoiding all of my problems
          That is what I am doing
          I shouldn't be waiting or alone
          I should be making plans
          I should be asking to go places
          I should
          But I dont know why I wont
          Thats the one thing im not sure of right now
          But I do know that I am alone

Hey yall. My publishing has come to a stop for a while. I no longer have access to a computer that I am able to use so I can no longer post. But, I can put my poems in these announcements. Some might need to be split up because of how long they are but thats fine. Unfortunately you can not vote though. Let me know if this is something yall want me to do!

Hey gurl I'm bored, do you think I could make a cover for your books? Like if you just send me inspo I can draw/create covers. ??? 

Hey yall! So sorry its been so long since ive posted... I was going thru a lot.. finals, my bf broke up with me for no reason rly, and honestly im jst repeatedly been reminded of how much my parents hate me. So ive jst been trying to survive my own thoughts and feelings, but now that the school year is over, I have no idea what's in store for me. 
          UPDATES:
          June 7-20 I will not be posting because I am doing 2 week long campouts with my troop. 
          My Chromebook is acting up so idk how much im gonna be able to post still
          Anyway, that's all for now! I love yall so very much and remember to stay strong and hold on to the best things in your life!!!

DAY 3:
          Hey yalll!!! So today was a really long day and we did a LOT of walking. When I get home I will need to retire my shoes. Its okay though because I had an amazing day! Anyway here's a long list of it all!
          We got up and did hotel breakfast. Then we left for a tour at the national cathedral.  It was really pretty . Then we went to the air and space museum. We learned a lot about the first plane ever flown . And a lot about the Apollo 11 moon landing [first moonlanding]. As Neil Armstrong said: " One small step for men, One giant leap for mankind."✨✨️✨✨️. It was really fun to learn about. 
          Then we left and went to the police memorial. We found officer langsdorfs name. He was shot in 2019 . It was sad. 
          Then we walked around the national mall aka all of the national monuments. We saw the White House, the Washington monument, the  Lincoln memorial, the koren war memorial, the tidal basin for the cherry blossom trees and so much more!!! 
          Dinner was really yummy. I had an Italian sandwhich.
          Gnnnnnn yall! I will be back tmrw

DAY 2:
          Hey yall!!! Today was a great day! I witnessed things that only happened once in a lifetime ✨️     ♥️ . 
          Arlington cemetery: -looked at a bunch of cool graves 
          - watched the changing of the guard 
          - watched 3, yes 3, wreath changing ceremonys 
          - walked around a lot
          - saw the honor flight
          So overall Arlington cemetery was really cool!
          Then
          Smithsonian of natural history:
          More like animals and climate...
          -Marine life
          -dinos 
          - gemstones
          - Egyptian mythology 
          - seeing and learning a little bit about the stars  
          Then was dinner. I have to tell abt this one because it was really fancy.
          LE CHAT NIOR:
           It was really pretty  
          The food was good. I got a dish that was similar to a beef stew. It had reallyyyyy tender meat. Like melt in your mouth meat✨. It was soo good.
          For dessert, we ate pistachio and lavender ice cream. Lavender sherbet. And chocolate moose ice cream. 
          
          
          Anyway today was the best day by far✨

TRAVEL DAY 1:
          today was pretty good. I was just really tired, I only got an hour and a half of sleep. I got up and showered, then put all of my carry on items in the bag. Then we packed up the truck and left for the airport. The plane ride was good. ✨️. We couldn't check into out hotel until 3pm, so we went to a restaurant. Called the founding farmers. Then we went sightseeing and then went to the Smithsonian of American history. That was cool. Then we checked into the hotel and went pretty much strait to bed. 
          
          The next days will be in other messages. The message with it all was over 3000 words

Hey yall! So I am currently on my way to the airport from Washington dc! But anyway, I text my friends these daily updates and one of them told me I should start a blog online or something. So im going to post it in my announcements bc I have no access to a computer currently. Anyway it will be in the next announcement!

Hey yall! I haven't been able to post because I am currently in Washington dc!!!✨️✨️ its amazing here. Anyway, I will not be able to post till after the 27th. Either way, its going to be a few poems and the first chapter of my novel. I love yall so much and thanks for following!!! Byeeeee✨️✨️