Juatanother_simp

Recently realized a big thing that happened in my life recently.
          Didn't really think about it much at the time, but I recently thought about and remembered what happened to me when I was around 10-11. I realize now that I had been sexually assulted. 
          (The story) 
          My family has had a few fresh air fund kids, and this one was from new York. She was a year younger than me, but much more into technology and the world. She once tried to teach me how to twerk. Anyway, one year when I was 10/11 we we're in bed (I had a queen-size mattress so we shared it) and she said she wanted to play boyfriend and girlfriend. I said sure, being young and naive. She decided to put her hand in my pants and rub my but and do...... Ya. I didn't really know why she was doing it, and I definitely didn't say she could. We had her a total of 3 years, but thankfully she only did it twice. 
          I don't know if this makes sense, but I think that this heavily impacted me, but without me really realizing. 
          Anyways, decided to share this story...... Stay safe out there 

My cat just died today. 
          I came home from a bad day at school, to hear that my cat Bolt had been hit by a car. I always dreaded this. He is an inside outside cat, and we live in the country, but whenever I called him inside for bed and he didn't come immedietly, I would start worrying that he was hit. But now he was. He was my baby, my kitten, I called him scrum. He was my whole world. He was one of the very few things holding me on this earth. But now he is gone. 
          I feel like the whole world is against me. First my best friend said she didn't want to be friends anymore, now we are again but its kind toxic... Then, ugh, school started, and now my Bolty is dead. I have been crying for hours.....
          Well..... RIP Bolt

Just took some online tests(I know they are not 100% accurate).
          Turns out I have severe anxiety and severe depression 
          Not surprising.
          Definitely not talking to my parents about it. 

What am I doing right now? Oh nothing just watching beeduo tiktoks and eating spicy cheese at 1 in the morning

Soooooo.... Sorry for being offline for really long. I am going through another rough spot with my mental health, and on Friday my best friend just said she didn't want to be friends anymore. She was the only one I told (irl) about how I feel(mentally/self-harm) but she still left and it really hurts. So ya I just lost my best friend, my only true friend, the person I told everything, and my only friend who likes dsmp. Ya..... How is your day? 
          (Our families are also really close(we see each other almost every day) so it's really awkward and ya)

Does anyone have any song suggestion I should try listen to? I have been trying to expand my music taste, and Wattpad users apparently have good music taste. Many of the songs  on my playlist were introduced to me by Wattpad stories and comments, so thank you.
          Anyway, any suggestions?

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!!!!!!
          I like girls:D
           I have accepted that I like girls. I might be bi or pan or something similar to that but this is me coming out I guess.
          <3 
          Ily, no matter what, and I accept you no matter what
          /platonic ofc

Finished another story in my Dsmpxreader book. I'm sorry for the delay and I hope you like it :D

YOOOOOO
          TOTALLY DIDN'T WAIT TILL 12:00 TO SAY ITS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY

I have an idea for angst/fluff, or angst/platonic but I don't know which character to do it with, please give suggestions and say if it should be romantic fluff or platonic