JustA_Bean7890

I JUST GOT AN EMF READER HEHEHEHEHHE-

JustA_Bean7890

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My mom and dad keep saying that I'm young and don't know what I am yet, though I know DAMN WELL that I am pansexual/panromantic. Maybe question gender, whatever. I feel comfortable as a demigirl but sometimes I feel male- maybe I'm gender fluid? Idk. BUT ANYWAYS- I might be asexual or Demisexual, don't know yet.
          
          But what THEY DON'T KNOW is that I have a PARTNER. I've had one for MONTHS. Ever since the summer of 2025. Yet I'm too scared to tell them because I never find the right chance. And last night I had a dream I told them I was dating someone non-binary and they were fine with it. Today I was going to when my mom brought it up again, BUT MY BROTHER WAS JUST STANDING THERE STARING AT ME. I felt so self conscious and now I wonder what I even am anymore.
          
          And she keeps comparing my life to hers even though she's saying, AND I QUOTE: "I'm not trying to control your life, you can live your own life. I was the same way with my own mother." EVEN THOUGH SHES TELLING ME THAT I DON'T UNDERSTAND SHIT. Like, I've known what I was for years now, and she even said AND I QUOTE AGAIN: "I've known I liked girls since I was, like, 8 years old? I didn't know I was attracted to men until like 13 or 14." Like, hello? I THINK I KNOW WHAT I AM IF I'M DATING SOMEONE AND GENUINELY LOVE THEM LIKE THEY LOVE ME BACK AND IM NOT A FUCKING 8 YEAR OLD AND NEITHER ARE THEY.
          
          My parents tell me to be myself, and my biological mother even said that she hoped I was gay for some odd reason. And now, they're telling me I'm too young and to wait until I'm an adult? Like, I've pretty much been an adult since I was A FUCKING 4 YEAR OLD. WHAT THE FUCK DO THEY MEAN IM NOT MATURE?
          
          I am trying not to cry while typing all this, that's how much it hurts. And every time I try talking to them I get nervous and shut down. I just can't handle all this fucking pressure like they say I can. Especially whenever they're trying to make me feel safe and loved when they do the exact fucking opposite.

Skirk3

@JustA_Bean7890 it's ok!,all that matters is that you happy and feel seen<3
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JustA_Bean7890

@Skirk3 Help I'm gonna cry-
            
            No one ever tries to comfort me like this except my partner and best friend irl, so this means a lot to me. Thanks you so much. It helps to know at least SOMEBODY read and acknowledged my vent.
            
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            (I tried making a heart with symbols but my phone is low-key trash so idk if it'll look the same--)
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Skirk3

@JustA_Bean7890 its ok I'm here,if others don't support you just know that I do even if that means nothing to how you feel.
            
            I had the same problem as you do now, as you know in a lesbian/bisexual and possibly aro-ace girl,when I came up with the thought I was bi when I was 8 I was told "your to young to know what you are" or "you will realize when you go out with a boy". I was always told this every time I tried finding my true identity,8-10=bi, 10-11=pan/non-binary, 12-13(now)lesbian/bisexual/aro-ace.
            
            My dad, uncles(2) and grandma(idk about my dads mum,I hadn't seen her since I was 5 and she died in 2023/2025).
            
            But my mum, friends,teachers(not all) and some people online
            
            And those people are the people who's thoughts matter to me,you should never let the people who's thoughts don't matter bring you down.you lover your partner(and yourself) no matter what people say,don't let there words stop you finding yourself
            
            Never give up hope,WE'RE here for you and if there not I'M here for you.
            
            (Ps:I check my notifications every week if not every day,if you ever need me please talk to me, I'll listen when no one else does because yo deserve to be heard.)
            
            -SKIRK
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JustA_Bean7890

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Don't you just love when your biological mother visits you after like a year for only a few days and blames everything on you and then days later after she's gone again your guardians who are actually amazing are arguing about her to my brother because he's spoiled yet hated at the same time by her? 
          
          (I need serious help, yet talking to others or being hugged doesn't do shit for me. Is that bad..?)

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I just love how I made a Solar X Moon oneshot book thingy and multiple people have seen it yet not commented.
          
          
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JustA_Bean7890

@Skirk3 Dang
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Skirk3

@JustA_Bean7890 bro I did a whose next pull on my new book fnaf characters vs yn and NO ONE voted a single character T_T
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JustA_Bean7890

@JustA_Bean7890 REQUESTS ARE OPEN DUDE!!
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JustA_Bean7890

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I SWEAR TO GOD, BRO.
          
          People nowadays don't put commas in their stories to save their LIFE. Like, DUDE. It's not that hard 
          Also, if you don't know where commas go, WHY ARE YOU EVEN ON WATTPAD?? COMMAS ARE, LIKE, GRADE SCHOOL SHIT.