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And happy holidays everyone!

Happy *very* betalted birthday Shotaro❤

Halpy Birthday Chenle! Thank you for always making nctzens happy. We love and appreciate you so much and I hope you know that.❤

Happy Birthday to Winwin, my ultimate NCT bias. Thank you for always being able to make me smile and giving me someone to relate to. I hope you have an beautiful day and that you are able to celebrate eoth all the members. We love you❤

Happy Birthday Yuta! I hope you know how widely loved you are and that NCTzens will be supporting you always. You are appreciated and we live you always!❤

Happy Birthday YangYang! Thank you for making me smile, giggle and laugh. I hope your having an amazing day and that you are receiving lots of love and support on your special day. We love you always!❤

Happy birthday Hendery! Thank you for being so weird and unique and always being able to make me laugh. We love you always❤ Aslo he has the same birthday as my sister and brother, so I actually celebrated that day

Me and all my friends got sent home from school today because one of our friends got tested positive. I'm lowkey bummed cos now I won't see my friends for 2 weeks

Ot23 and anyone else who thinks otherwise can get the fuck outta my face.

Honestly I'm just so sick of it. I want to give up in everything. I don't want to move to yr 11, I don't want to study, I don't want to take my GCSEs, I don't want to work anymore. This year has just been such a mess and I really can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm buried to the neck in catch up work and my motivation is non-existant. I wanted to do some art today and was feeling inspired but I didn't have time because I needed to do school work. Now my inspiration is gone and I don't want to do anything recreational. Even though I've been working my ass off, it's seems like nothing is paying off. Everyone tells me I put to much pressure on myself and it's true but what do you expect me to do? My target grades are all As and it feels like I'm no where close to what people expect of me. Everything just feels so overwhelming.