Jayden :)

HE KEEPS CALLING ME CUTE I'M COMBUSTING PLEASEEEE
          
          we're not dating yet, I WANT to date him but it's too soon UGHHH
          I also don't know when would be appropriate to ask... ugh. 

YAYYAYAYAYAY
          
          okay 1:
          
          I went out with the guy I like. yippee! he called me cute and gave me some candy + a bracelet + a dog plush keychain as gifts!
          
          2:
          
          TADC is airing in the movie theater where I live! YAY! :D
          I'm going with my friends OF COURSE, we're all SO EXCITED!! I can't wait!
          
          so, yea, great day today!!
          
          

guys I forgot what having a crush felt like and I may be going INSANE. UGH.
          
          also, I think I'm pan??
          the person I like is a guy.

first time going to therapy.
          
          told her I was getting over an addiction I forced myself to stop. she asked why I stopped (?)
          
          like, MA'AM??? I JUST said I was addicted, WHY WOULDN'T I STOP??
          but, yeah, it's kinda hard asking a therapist for help when I forced myself to cope alone for so much time. lol.

being a lesbian is knowing you'd do anything you swore to never do for a man for a woman

so, uh... wattpad just deleted all of my drafts??
          
          so yeah, that sucks. lost a bunch of stories I was trying to work on, one of them half done.

hate when there's a really popular ship that is actually PRETTY GOOD, but I just can't help my INSATIABLE need for the rarepair with 20 fanfics on ao3 and 2 on wattpad that I've read at least twice EACH!
          
          (I am talking about Ragapomt/Jesterdoll/Buttonblossom)

hey, guys.
          I've been going through some pretty bad stuff the last few days, but... the reason it's been getting worse is bc I'm trying to recover, meaning I had to quit some stuff.
          
          hopefully once I recover from that, I will get back to writing after three years. who knows!

when someone you were too scared to talk to suddenly adopts you as their friend (I'm happy but like AAAAAA)

I've been tired from school and some other personal stuff in the past few years, so I'm sorry to have quit.
          
          I would love to come back now, but honestly, I've no idea how to write anymore! :(
          
          I completely forgot the plot I had for my old fic, plus my writing sucked (I was fourteen guys COME ON)
          
          so yeah, I won't be posting anytime soon.