⚰️Elif⚰️

And I wish I could help
          But it's hard when I hate myself

Everybody has a dark side
          
          I feel embarrassed when they see mine
          
          Rain falling from my dark skies
          
          Clouds parting, but it's all lies
          
          Shouldn't I see the sunshine now?
          
          Wonder how I look in God's eyes
          
          Am I a good person or a lost one?
          
          Will this feel worth it when I'm all done?
          
          Will I feel ashamed or like who I was?
          
          Will the pain vanish or will more come?
          
          Will I stay numb or regain love?
          
          Maybe someday have a taste of freedom?
          
          Will I take the poison out of my blood?
          
          Or just leave it there inside of my lungs? 

Raise your hands, what do you hold?
          The Devil's bleeding crown!
            

'Cause all of my demons are my friends 

Tick, tock, stop the clock
          Because I get the feeling that I'm gonna get shot

I made friends with the dark parts that are inside of my mind