-You’ve told him, didn’t you?
Yes, I did. I wrote all my thoughts about him on a piece of paper and gave it to him. It was actually kinda awkward because I ran to him, gave him the note and literally ran away. I didn’t heard anything from him the whole afternoon and it scared the crap out of me. ‘He isn’t going to talk to me again,’ I thought. I was terrified because I wasn’t ready to lose him yet. I was just starting to let him go, not much, just a little. So I texted him to say sorry about the stupid note. He simply just answered by saying: ‘Don’t be such a pussy. There is nothing weird about that.’
‘I don’t know… I guess that’s just something I struggle with.’ And I did.
‘It doesn’t matter. It’s natural!’ he answered.
‘Of course it is. You just helped me so much without even knowing it and I appreciate that.
‘Okay. Awsome. Beautiful.’
‘Wonderfull,’ I laugh.
‘Well…. uhm, you’re welcome.’ We didn’t say much after that, but I couldn’t get the smile of my face. I’m the kind of person who prepares for the worst. Just like they build the cages of a car extra strong because they know that it won’t be an easy trip. But he was really sweet and I’m so happy about that. Of course I cried, not because my heart was broken or anything, but because I felt lucky. I met the kind of guy where people write books about. The kind of boy you want in your life. The silly ones with the kind eyes and stupid kind of humor. I guess that made me love him more. But next year is going to me my year. I won’t be the same girl I was before. I’ll be better, because I know now that there persons who care, persons who make others smile - the kind of person I want to be.