Just a Simp/Eyes

I know this is the first message of the year, but I really want to stop being here irl. Like breathing. I just wanted to make friends online today and I'm already being told I shouldn't ever been alive. I hate being called a little bitch. And people keep using the wrong pronouns when addressing me to the point where I think I'm not valid at all. Hope you have a good year.—Eyes

Hey guys, it's my birthday today! I hope one day I will be seeing the support I need from people who actually care about me! Please don't mind my other messages before this one I was going through a bit of a long time of being hated and being really bad with my mental health. So happy birthday to me!! :)

I'm starting to hate myself even more. I don't know why but I keep on getting hate from people who I thought I could be friends with. I'm really trying to be nice and yet they keep on telling me to "Go fucking hang yourself" when we talking. I know its really toxic but they are the only people I know. Lol now I'm thinking "what if I never existed" every time I talk to them. I really wish I was normal, to not be autistic and stupid. Hope you have a good day.

I recently found out my family is very prone to really bad panic attacks, So what happened last night was not as bad as the ones in the future may be! Hope you guys are ok!

I had my first ever REAL panic attack, I could barely breathe! I thought I was going to die! :)

My birthday is coming up in 10 days! :)

You guys can comment on my art book if you want to. I'll try to read most of the comments if I get any. Hope you guys enjoy my art!

I might make an art book because my brain is telling me to let my creativity be known but I’m not sure that’s what I should do. I’m probably going to do it anyway.

I'm officially going by They/Them pronouns! I recently realized that I'm more comfortable with those pronouns than She/Her. I hope you guys will understand and accept this recent change!—Eyes

UPDATE: I concerned my family so bad they suggested I walk home or go to therapy in the middle of a car ride. Why would I go to therapy when I have to listen to my only friends vent over and over? Yeah, I'm autistic and have anger issues but I'm not fully insane! Yeah, I might have thoughts about a nuclear explosion wiping out the entire human species, but I'm not insane.