Just a Simp/Eyes

Wow, this account has ALL my crash outs yikes...
          
          Welp! I'm back but I'm not fully active here since I've mostly moved to ao3 as a lurker account. 
          
          So update on my life, I've been off my meds for a while now and it did NOT get better. Turns out you can't fix your anger issues with some snacks and a bottle of water everyday! (Not my choice to get off the meds mind you) Yadda yadda family stuff.
          
          Oh I've recently (if you can count like mid 2025 recent) found out I'm a fiction kin, haha! 
          Oh and I've gotten a NEW friend group, it's small but I care about my buds. 
          
          Also found out I might have a little issue with thinking I'm getting replaced and ignored by people I care about, that's nice? 
           
          Welp that's all I remembered to say! Bye ig!
          
          (Updated description just so y'all know)

I got a partner and then they dumped me by sending another friend to text me it instead of saying it to my face... Now my friends have to deal with my clingy and crying face yapping about how much I miss them.

I feel like shit.

Of course the people who i thought were friends believed the homophobic and rude people who were harassing me and giving me body issues and suicidal thoughts. Of course, all of the people i trust will eventually backstab me or just enjoy me being tormented from the ones who hurt me. I just wanted to keep my friends from all those years ago and yet they want me dead. What a great thing to see when i woke up, a trusted friend becoming the most distant stranger. At least i can eventually find peace with my new friends unless im outcasted again. I just wish i could be perfect for once. I just want to never be hurt and never cry when a friend leaves me to rot with regret. I hope i eventually see a day when nothing is bad and the old friends can talk to me after being so hurtful to me.

DON'T ADVERTISE ON MY ACCOUNT
          I'm using this account as a way to VENT right now. If you advertise after this announcement is posted i will block you completely.

I know this is the first message of the year, but I really want to stop being here irl. Like breathing. I just wanted to make friends online today and I'm already being told I shouldn't ever been alive. I hate being called a little bitch. And people keep using the wrong pronouns when addressing me to the point where I think I'm not valid at all. Hope you have a good year.—Eyes

Hey guys, it's my birthday today! I hope one day I will be seeing the support I need from people who actually care about me! Please don't mind my other messages before this one I was going through a bit of a long time of being hated and being really bad with my mental health. So happy birthday to me!! :)

I'm starting to hate myself even more. I don't know why but I keep on getting hate from people who I thought I could be friends with. I'm really trying to be nice and yet they keep on telling me to "Go fucking hang yourself" when we talking. I know its really toxic but they are the only people I know. Lol now I'm thinking "what if I never existed" every time I talk to them. I really wish I was normal, to not be autistic and stupid. Hope you have a good day.

I recently found out my family is very prone to really bad panic attacks, So what happened last night was not as bad as the ones in the future may be! Hope you guys are ok!

I had my first ever REAL panic attack, I could barely breathe! I thought I was going to die! :)