@Just_Keep_Moving
I am sorry for the last post. I just wanted to update that I will write again. The words kept on flowing and it came as such. I am truly sorry
@Just_Keep_Moving Hello I love your work. While reading your book, i really felt that this is something different. Don't worry. Take your time.
Hello friends,
I haven't been able to update. There is a reason. It doesn't give me any excuse but still you guys might understand me and hopefully give me some semblance of forgiveness.
This is a kind of confession; and also a promise to myself that I will attempt to improve my life.
I suspect I have depression. I have had it for a long time I suppose. I have no proof of it and honestly I have felt like this my whole life. I know a lot of people might say that self diagnosis is not the best way; and I agree, but at this point I cannot see a therapist.
So long story short: I lost my job a year and a half back and went into a state of withdrawal. I barely contacted anyone, It was bad then. After several months came back home due to corona spread.
And then bad turned to worse.
I had earlier told my elder brother in great confidence about my issues. I was desperate and I wanted some sort of support. Some help. When I had told him abut my problems an year back he had seemed supportive on the call at first. I had felt relief then, for a fleeting second. Maybe I can face this with the support of a loved one.
I had always been hesitant to share my problems. So I guessed let me trust my brother for once. Maybe he will understand. He had been always been rude to me throughout my life and I had always let it go. My mom always held me in high regard and consequently I sort of took his brashness and arrogance as a sort of brotherly cheek.
I truly thought that in the hearts of hearts he must love me brother. What a folly that was! I am ruefully smiling right now.
Over the past few year I think our relationship has come to such a stage that I seriously doubt we ever had some brotherly bond.
He has used my words of a vulnerable moment time and time again. I feel betrayed and I truly doubt I can trust anyone fully again.
@Just_Keep_Moving Hopefully you are recovered now and if not I sincerely pray for your mental health to become better in coming days , your stories are very enticing and you have a great talent for writing which gives relief and pleasure to many more readers invluding myself , I hope you bounce back with full vigour in life .
Yet I wonder...I regret...maybe I am at fault. Of course I am partly to blame- I shared my problems with him. Yes I have also spoken harsh words in the heat of moment. I truly don't know anymore?
My dad has barely been interested in me all my life. And my mom; well I know she loves me, but she is old-fashioned, rigid, set in her own ways. A bit naive at times. I can't expect help from her. And in the past year, I have realized how much she kinda enjoys my brothers company over me and kinda agrees with him. Not consciously I am sure. But deep down there is that.
I am not looking for sympathy. I just need a ear I guess. I truly don't know anymore.
I think I just wanna say I will write. I will finish this novel. And I have a fair idea about another one that truly excites me. This is a promise. At least I can do one thing correct in this godforsaken life
To myself.
Thank you my friend. To whoever read this.
First let me thank all my readers.
I have been one of the most despicable authors out here. I have not been regular and had not posted for such a long time.
I am just grateful that most of you kind readers stuck around waiting for the dumb jester that is me. Thank you for that!
I just changed my username.
Its a penname, not my real name.
I don't know why just on a whim a guess. Thanks and have a good day.
Hello everyone,
This is a message to anyone whose listening, to the universe... to my followers.. to my friends and family. But more so to myself.
Life is hard..its tough and filled with moments of sadness, of loneliness and self doubt. It's true. And sometimes things can almost seem so bleak that you might wanna...
BUT DON'T.
If you endure and fight, even if alone. You might expect some angel to help you. Sometimes they come. Often they don't. Yet there is another one.
It's you.
If you wait for it. Just wait for it. Wait for it.
And something good will happen.
Some call it magic. A miracle. A Talisman maybe.
But I say, its simply life. Just plain simple old life.
Good day to you all.
Next update in 2 days
To anyone listening ( which I know are very few), I'm very sorry for being away without informing at all.
Things have been tough yet it's no reason....
I'm sorry guys, but by this tomorrow the next chap will be up, that's a promise.
I hope you will understand and just know that I'm really really sorry.
@The_Dhananjay update: I fell sick today. It's as if the heaven's are plotting against me. If I am late pls forgive me
I am sorry for the delay this week. The next chap of Ahoswacog would be up by tommorow morning.
Here's my link to Saaho review for the contest by Film Companion.
https://www.wattpad.com/story/199305163
Hi!
Thanks for adding "The Young Foreigner" to your reading list!
Hello Friends,
I want to thank you for all the support I have got from you guys. Even small comments, something like a mere like 'well done' gives me a hope, that maybe someday even a worthless being like myself can achieve what I have dreamed since I was 7, when my dad handed me the first book, 'Aladdin'. I have met some truly great people here and I'm thankful for it.
I just want to tell you, I'm taking a break for a week. Life is happening and I'm overwhelmed right now. But whatever happens the next update will be on Wednesday next week. That's a promise, no matter how broken I'm or not.
Thank you and Love,
Dhananjay