Fei~☕❄

Guys, I'm going off Wattpad. I'm deleting it for good. We honestly had an amazing run. I made some of the bestest friends here, some of which I still keep in contact with. But I grew up, I thought of this app as a way of making friends and just reading but, I don't have that feel for it anymore. It's been fun, but, like every good thing it had to end someday. I've been on Wattpad for what? 2 years now? It's honestly been a good experience, much more than just a reading app. At some point, I found myself just losing interest in it all. Sorry to the people I can't contact anymore due to this. 
          
          Bye friends :) I wish you all the best

TNIT is now officially unpublished until further notice. Thank you to all my readers supporting me :)
          
          I'll try my best to remake the book, but if I do, there will be some event changes and the writing style will be a bit more different.
          
          Editing has been in process, but it feels wrong to leave TNIT as a published book.
          
          Thank you again.

I need help guys! I'm feeling like a prick right now! 

I hate guys. Guys suck. They make you and everyone else think that they're this prick-ass, tough, strong dude that never lets anyone get to them.
          
          But when you unintentionally hit their soft spot, you realize they're human too. You realize that they endure all the shit that society throws at them, but they never once cry or complain like girls.
          
          Cuz they're put under the standard that they have to be tough and put over this shell, ever since birth.
          
          It's scientifically proven that guys are more sensitive than girls, yet I never believed it.
          
          When you realize that a guy you hate, is nothing like you ever imagined on the inside, that's when shit gets real.
          
          Cuz that's when you know:
          
          You don fucked up.
          
          

I changed for the worst. Thanks to everyone who I ever decided to trust. Cuz guess what kids? Trusting people, never brought me any good. And I doubt it ever will.

I told you I hate him. So why don't you hate him too?
          
          I told you he hurt me, so why do you love him?
          
          I told you he broke me, so why do you smile the brightest with him?
          
          Do I just expect my friends to be as loyal as I am, or do you really just not give 2 shits about my feelings anymore?
          
          Sorry. I don't enjoy putting so much effort, when you put in none at all.
          
          Why did you never care about the fact that maybe, just maybe, you continuously spending time with and ranting about someone who's hurt me so much, could actually emotionally damage me?
          
          Have you never thought that maybe I smile so much cuz I'm faking it? Or am I just that good of an actor.
          
          I don't want to be around people who hurt me, anymore. I wanna away from you, and him, and everyone else who couldn't care less about my side.
          
          Cuz real best friends always put each other first. 
          
          So why does he always rank above me?

I'm actually in a good mood today babes even though I'm under a ton of stress. ^3^ I love you all :) 
          
          No seriously bitch, I may have never even seen you before, but I'm in love with you.

Heh...you know the worst feeling I've ever felt? When I feel left out.
          
          My whole life, I've been put under strict rules, instructions, values, standards, ect. I never had the normal things that a child should have. And even today, I'm still trapped, never getting a chance to just go out and be free.
          
          But the worst part. Is when your own friends make you feel left out and mad, just by hanging out without you.
          
          Not because they want to, but because you can't go with them. Cuz you were never given the opportunities and liberties as them.
          
          That's when I don't call it pitying myself, I call it jealousy.
          
          It's the jealousy that makes me wish I had the same life as them. It's the jealousy that cries me to sleep, wishing my life was easier. The jealousy that haunts me and eats me up inside.
          
          They say don't live your life in jealousy. But if jealousy lives within you?

I lovee youuu

Gorgeous