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Hey guys! (Sorry about so many updates today!!)
TW: Thoughts of self harm, heartbreak
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I'm going to try my best to move on. The good thing is, I won't see her for a few months because of summer break
But it's just so hard to move on from a person after so long.
And i want to erase my feelings for her. But i still have hope, that someday she'll see something in me.
I know it seems dumb, but I'm holding onto that last bit of hope.
And I REALLY tried to ignore my feelings for her in the beginning, but the more i denied it, its like it grew more and more just so I could see it.
I've already been going through a lot of shit in the last year, alone. This is just more.
I really have been thinking of self harm lately.
I've talked to my parents and therapist about it.
My therapist is saying i should be in a mental hospital but she's giving me a chance
I really don't want to talk about this though.
My parents don't even know what went on with Delilah, they just know that we're friends. They have no idea about my feelings for her. And I'd like to keep it thst way.
My parents think im "too young" to understand love. So theres no way I'm telling them.
I can't cry. They'll see me. I'll hold it in until tomorrow. For when I'm in school. Just a bathroom break or 2 should be enough. Right?
I'm sorry about the ranting, I just really needed to let this out. This may be poorly written, I have issues expressing my feelings truely.
Thanks for reading this, if you got this far.
I love you guys so much <3
XxKittenxX