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lately, our conversations end like it's our last goodbye

I know that you don't, but if I ask you if you love me, I hope you lie to me

been out of the wattpad world for 7 months, please comment some suggestions of what to read

If this is what it feels like when falling and drowning. Then I’ll willingly jump on a cliff and feel the air against my skin as I fall and the water that envelops my body as I crashed down the water. Even if I know that I don’t know how to swim, I’d still walk towards the sea, away from the shore where everything is fine, where everything is in the right place, where I’m alive, yes, physically alive but not my mind, not my heart, and not my soul, I’d still walk until I can’t touch the sand with my feet. I’d still walk until my mouth and my nose is covered by the water, until I drowned. I’ll be in the middle of the sea, that deep blue sea, I’ll be there lying with the coral reefs beside me, here, where everything is unpredictable, nothing’s for sure, where my life is at stake, where everything seems so beautiful yet so dangerous, where even a single ray of the sun won’t be seen, here, in the dark under the sea, with you, you that gives me light, and a feeling of delight, you as my life. I may not be able to pull myself up or save myself but I’ll be glad to stay with you, drowned, dead, in love.

I'm on a very high fcking cliff and below this is a water, an ocean to be exact, a deep one, an endless one. it seems so dangerous and yet its so inviting, so calming, so wonderful and so mysterious. it scares me to see the depth of this ocean but it also excites me to see what lies beneath it. I know that if I fall I'll get drown, I'm fully aware of it that no one's there to catch me that if I fall I'll broke. I took one step forward, and two steps backward. I'm scared. I know that in my mind I'm scared so I decided to back off and just hide inside my cave, inside my dark and lonely cave. but before I can even think I just saw myself running towards the edge of the cliff and in one second my feet are not on the ground anymore, I jumped. it wasn't my intention to, but that what's my heart wants. the air is welcoming me. it's nice. it feels good no, it feels great. it was probably the best feeling ever. and I heard a loud splash and my body starts to get wet but I'm still falling. I can feel the need for air. but I didn't get up to catch for some. I let myself get drowned.

baby I know it's something that we should stop, something we shouldn't have started but damn I can't help it, you're like a magnet, pulling me onto the pool of sins. you're damn attractive baby just like a glamorous diamond, no, baby you're much better than that.

Cause when you're fifteen,
          Somebody tells you they love you
          You're gonna believe them
          And when you're fifteen ♪

Don't be a fool and say that you love me ;(

You've got my heart
          But I can't let you keep it, babe
          Cause I won't be sure that I can stay 

I don't know what you're going through but there's so much life ahead of you. ;)