As I continue on my path of writing as my hobby I find it hard to express my character's in each sentence and each book I write. I have written almost 60 books, each one I continue to fail due to my lack of expression, empathy, or creativeness. Writing the plot comes and flows with me normally but developing the character feelings and thoughts has become a hard part for me as I am disconnected within myself and everyone. Having the strong urge to write hasn’t left my body but thinking of others has, it left me more mentally weak and tired to the point I continue to build a solitary life. For those I have turned away even though what we shared was ethereal, I am sorry for my selfish decision.