Irati Kira

Heyo, I'm still on my breakish, while i still do plan to atleast give some closure on that certain book it probs won't have mt full attention bc i've found a new hyperficsation on house md which is rly sad but anyways I've checked wattpad everyday i just don't dont talk lol. Sorry if this video is a bit frantic i just filmed myself doing certain activietys (not sexual) to a friend and my brain is going 100 miles a minute. ANyways hiya, i might start writing again soon idk when so if you actually enjoy my existense stay tuned for a possible new fafic lol

Wait i forgot to press anounce to followeres, go read the msg bellow on my profile pls lol

Hey guys i'm going on a break, ik no one is rly gonna see this cuz like i only have 18 followers but hey still nice.
          So i have 3 assments due next week that i have barely started and one was due yesterday and i haven't started but its fine ig and there was a car accident, i'm fine btw, and my family is going throught things, someone fainted, my mums in the hospital, i have to start biking to and from everywhere now bc i don't have money for a bus and no one to drive me and i also have the care for my younger siblings now bc shes in the hospital. But hey atleast i get to bike to school again, i'm so excited. Also i'm on new meds so its kinda muckying my schedual bye bye :)

Me when the art i drew won't let add in my story >:[ womp womp

Bye bye, i go sleep now :)

Me when my pfp won't change :<

That announcement is for me, to help me. I'm probably going to realease the chapters i have finished when my editor gets them back to me but then i may take a break. How am i supposed to live when the person who kept me living is suposidly like the people who made me want to die? I don't care whats going on right now, it doesn't involve me but it affects me. I just hope everyone is okay, happy and healthy and for those who are struggling to grasp at reality and accept anything in life whether rekationg to the topic or not i'm free for dms through discord, twitter or here. I don't care. i do but i don't. I just want to stay alive. (None of what is said is directly targetted at anyone and i do not support anything illegal, i'd apricate it if you would keep your opinions about me away, i don't need to hear them. I'm already struggling, i already was, i'm being as open as i can but that is not going to help, no one diserves to die, you don't know whats going on, you don't know what happen before, now or the future thats what life is, you only know that you exist inside your heads and even then you can't be sure of that. I'm sorry if this has offended, triggered or hurt you in anyway, that is not my intention, don't come at me for making this about me because it indirectly is, and stuff is happening and the world is changing and i can't handle anymore right now. I have a private life and so do u, please keep it private. I personally believe just because you do a bad thing doesn''t mean ur a bad person Please stop sending death threats to others, its not nice. Everyone is different and we need to understand that. Again sorry if you don't agree, its not my job, sorry if you are offended, please leave me alone)
          
          Once again i'm going to continue the book, its just a character, my work and its good.
          
          Heres some help numbers, they may change for your country bc these aren't even for mine but idk if it helps it helps.
          
          Abuse Hotline Number: 800-799-7233
          Suicide Hotline: 988

Hey guys...
          
          I'm sorry
          Everyone is writing about how much they hate a certain someone. I'm crying. I feel like i'm going to die. I hate myself because i'm always late. I'm late to class, to parties, i was late to this fandom and now i can't enjoy what was. I know that this isn't about me but theres a saying 'Your actions have an affect on others'  and its true. This is affecting me. So what I'M writing, what I AM doing right now is for me, this text for me its about me and i'm sharing it with you.
          I don't know who i am anymore.
          That man saved my life.
          Took me out of the biggest slump i have ever been in and he knows it.
          I was in that slump because of people and now you're telling me hes just like them?
          Its not fair
          'Lifes not fair'
          Well fuck life, you people always say lets make the world a better place. What the fuck are you doing? Why can't we make life fair? Why can't we leave the past in the past and look towards the future? Why can't we keep private things private? I've been in both possitions. Unitentionally. Not understanding. Its not fun. My words have no meaning to you and i swear to fuck if you try and understand you better keep to yourself because this is for me. People can't read minds. No matter what you say people will always find away to bring you down. 'I'm sorry' not good enough 'a whole essay and songs and poems etc' you're attention seeking 'your opinion' is wrong 'your thoughts and feellings' its not about you you are being selfish 'i statement' wheres the apology? why can't we all just be together? Why can't i just be alive. Why did you bring me back here? Do you notice the common words here? You, Me, poeple etc. I hate socitey. I hate people that do bad things but why do we cahnge? Why do we help? because we are human, we love, we care, we are always going to be wrong and right we will never be perfect and some mistakes are bigger than others. I'm sorry.
          
          I'm going to keep writing because some people need it and i love this book.

Down to my last 1.5 chapters yay! then i can start the sick fic >:]

Me when my acount locks because of my parental ccontrols in the middle of the spell check:
          
          Oop ohwel gess wear reedin jidderish todaaiiiii