KAEISNEXTDOOR

Soooooo I have 2 months to write every single book I want. Alr. I apologize if my shi is trash/rushed ppl.

KAEISNEXTDOOR

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Yooo, wsp everyone (whoever is reading this; probably nobody lmao)
          
          This may seem like a sympathy grab but I promise its not. I just have a lot of things in my head and need a way to “vent” a little.
          
          SOME of these thoughts my be random asf but my mind never seems to switch off and focus‍♀️. Its the autism and adhd in me I swear.
          
          Getting down to the point.
          
          life is shitty. Really shitty.
          
          It sucks watching my future go down the fucking drain bro. I actually had sm I wanted to do; I even wanted to be alive by 30, ain't that crazy. I'm shocked im not on drugs cooked out my fucking mind.
          
          This is cringy asf to say; but I want to check out of life early.
          
          Ik I shouldn't, im fuckin 19. I turn 20 next year (maybe). But I just don't have an urge to go forward. Can't really even envision myself older anymore.
          
          Like yeah, there's shit I wanna read, eat, and do. I have cool ass friends who I love dear; I love my ma and family, but I guess I won't make it to everything…
          
          ‍♀️fuckin’ sucks reading that rn tbh
          
          Many will say don't give up; many will be mean asf and tell me to hurry up (I wish, my nigga honestly) and many will not gaf; but honestly, unless im able to somehow achieve my greatest goal of leaving the country and fixing everything wrong with me, my mind it kinda set rn.
          
          BUT
          
          before I ultimately “go”, I have ONE thing I can do.
          
          I write, been doing it since middle school. Soo what imma do is publish my books. They'll be on wattpad since idk to use AO3 like that. Maybe it will spark something in me to keep goin’…idefk‍♀️
          
          My books have a wide range in fandoms; since I suck at drawing and im broke so I can't commission ppl, my books are oc x canon.
          
          If u don't like oc x canon it's okay, u don't have to read it. Pls don't complain tho alr? Argue with ya mama.
          
          I do hope u all are having a good one tho. I'll post chapters and stuff real soon. Hope it brings yall enjoyment