Succubxtch

Heyyyyy.. so i realize that this whole comments section is a really bright red flag for my mental health in the past half decade. Anyways, im definitely in a better place.
          I have an apartment, a stable job, and a cat.
          My condolences to anyone who had to read this shit.
          Also turns out i may in fact be bipolar, whoops.
          Slay.

i dont have twitter, so this is for you guys.
          My moms cat just expressed her butt glands on me. This is following the incident where she shat in my bed while making eye contact with me.
          This also follows the period of time where she would attack me if i ever got inebriated.
          She likes to cuddle me.
          What does this mean? Is this a long drawn out plan to strike me when im already at my worst mental states?
          Is she a genuinely evil cat?
          Is this my villain origin story?

Gave myself a 3rd degree burn in a gingerbread house competition. Half of the people bailed and it was not worth it. My thumbs are severely injured. 

Gotta be honest, the bar? Depressing place. I drank, i came home, i felt scummy. I feel like the bar attenders bad vibes stuck to me like a bug in a glue trap.
          Do not understand why people frequent it a lot. And it was more than one bar. They all feel bad.

Love when one of my fundamental rights is taken away because i have a womb instead of testicals.
          Fucking reversing roe v wade. What the fuck America?
          This country and the people doing this are fucking vile.
          Do better.
          Fuckin hate this place.

My parents really just looked at me and said, " we're sure shes autistic but no need to get tested or tell her" as i researched conversation topics to talk about with my family because i was unsure how to be a normal person who talks to other people. 

Lol, i feel like my body is decomposing with me still inside it. 
          Also pretty sure my body is eating itself. 
          Love this.

Just got a positive covid test. 
          I made it 2 years. 
          Feelin super guilty, cause im concerned for my fam. 
          Also in the first 90 days of my new job, so im having to take a week off for that. 
          Fuckin pandemic. 

Lemme just say that shit has turned around since my last little stint of losing my mind. I have a big girl job that pays almost 5$ over the min wage. Mentally? Still a mess, but its hard to be a mess when ur focused on a 8-5. So ig this is my glo up era.

Soo. Apparently, ive been sleepwalking. Which is super awful and i dont know for how long ive been doing it. Having a bad time with that one.