MOSHINE

I miss him so much☹️

If you hate everyone who wants to help you and help you grow and you think it's bad because it's trampling your ego, you'll just end up repeating the same thing over and over again in the life you have.
          
          You can't help yourself,  god gave you someone to help you learn and grow. But you don't accept it as knowledge because you are stuck in your own emotion,You took it as bad.
          
          That's why someone is there for you, even though they know you have a bad feeling about them, they are willing to humble themselves for you because they know they are the only one who will help you. But you are blind to see that.
          
          Don't wait for people to get tired of you just because of your own selfishness.

love me when you know how to love.

I miss him so much

I'm happy but sometimes i feel arghh!! nevermind 

it's hard to make mistakes. 
          
          because what you started with was good at first, and when you make a mistake, you go back to the beginning to make it even better.
          
           but... if you repeat the same mistake you made at first, you'll go back and back to the beginning, until you feel tired and think that's all I can do.
          
          
                                                                     realization.

My younger self and me...
          
          Hi my younger self, I know that we will carry all this trauma for the rest of our lives.
          
          But I'm happy now...
          
          I'm not alone here, unlike you who are always alone
          
          But I know I was imprisoned with you in the past..
          
          and our trauma will never go away, but there are people who are ready to fight for us.
          
          there are people who believe in us but there are people who don't believe in us.
          
          but I'm still happy even though I'm imprisoned with you I'm happy because without you I can't do all the things I promised you.
          
          I told you before that when we turn 18, we will look for a job and get rid of the person who gave us trauma and after that we will give justice to everyone he hurt.
          
          I can do a lot here, I'm not weak like you anymore.
          
          so hopefully we can both be free from the past...
          
          I want to be happy without remembering what was done to us before, I want to be free and start new memories without worrying.
          
          Thank you for being my motivation in everything, my younger self, I am proud of you because we made it. 
          
          I will give you a hug that will remind you that you are very brave and wise.
          
          

          
          I'm sorry if I choose to be selfish now, I'm sorry if people are having a hard time because of me, I don't know what I should because I'm having a hard time too. 
          
          I don't want to make it difficult for them either, but they give me strength to fight those who deserve to be punished. 
          
          I understand that he is our family even though he disrespected me and gave me a trauma that I will carry for the rest of my life.
          
           but I'm here now... 
          
          they gave me the courage to give justice to what he did to me but the exchange of that is being difficult for her brother/sister and his  parents.I understand  but I hope they understand me too.
          
           I've been hiding it for a long time, I've endured it for a long time, I've had to suffer alone because of what he did to me,  I hope they let me get my wish that I've been waiting for a long time.
          
          
          
          
          

how lucky am i??
          
           My first goal when I was a child was to find a job when I turned 18, I did it 
          
          The second thing I said when I was young was that I would find a job and leave our house, I did it again
          
           the third is to face my fears. I did it again
          
           the fourth thing is to get the justice that I said when I was a child that I would jail the person who gave me trauma, I can do it now
          
           I'm proud of myself because everything I said before, I've done and I can move forward, I'm happy because I'll get the justice I want for all my trauma.

it's my birthday I want to see you labi:⁠'⁠(