Victoria

This has been one of the worst months of K-pop. It's been one of the worst years of k-pop to have my ulti leave Monsta X, and then Woojin leaving a few days before on top of that bullshit- I can't. This has been absolute shit and I ledgit can't breathe right now. I'm so scared to sleep because I'm afraid I'll wake up and some even worse shit happened. I've been up since 6 am and had to deal with this the entire day, you know how hard it was to go to school, to take tests and deal with bullshit people. Y'all motherfuckers do not understand the weight of your words and y'all never seem to learn. It happened with Jonghyun and it happened with Sulli. Who's next? Whos life are you going to ruin now huh? Who? and what makes it even worse you believe bitch was caused so many rumours, who have caused so many people to leave their group, their family. Someone who has caused so much pain. TOP attempted suicide because of that bitch B.I got kicked out of Ikon and y'all continue to believe her. AFTER EVERYTHING! Wonho who is the nicest and kindest person on this Earth is hurting, and I am terrified to sleep because I'm afraid that I will wake up to him having done something stupid. I am terrified to wake up again and have situation like Jonghyun, again. I. Am. Terrified. This Idols are human and I don't understand Why you cannot get that through your skull they do are normal human things, they have not raped, they have not killed nobody they have done nothing wrong. The shit they do is the same shit that you do CAUSE THEY'RE HUMAN. You have no right to send them death threats. You have no right to get them kicked out of their company out of their dream. You have no right to push into the life whatsoever because in the end of the day, they're human beings whose job is only to entertain you. They are not your fucking dolls you can play however the fuck you want. You have no right. So much shit has happened in this year. So much.

The world lost another beautiful smile today, again. What happened to her is terrible the fact that she was bullied to suicide is absolutely disgusting. I don't care who you are, for you to say such terrible things to a human being is absolutely disgusting. We lost another angel today who will be missed. You can't blame her for this, you can't call her dramatic for doing this because mental illness is a real thing. It isn't as easy to go to therapy and all of sudden you're better. Mental illness suck ass and people don't say it but it does. Especially when it's someone in her situation were something as mental illness is frowned upon and is 'taboo' to talk about. Sulli was such an amazing and beautiful person who just wanted to be happy and she couldn't. She couldn't because of people who thought it was their business to criticize everthing she did to the point of not wanting to be here anymore. What can't you understand that you words do have power and they can hurt someone way more then you think. This isn't something you can push to the side. Idols are human and are hurt by what you say I don't care what the fuck is going on your life you have no right to do this to a person, a person who never hurt anybody and stood up for equality. She was human at the end of the day and she committed suicide, you pushed someone to suicide and I hope it eats you alive.One more thing it's sad, yes I know and Choi Sulli will be missed but don't connect her death to Jonghyuns. She isn't him and He wasn't her. They were to different people who went to there own struggle and pain. So don't. Be respectfully to the both of them. Do not drag Shawols into this please I beg of you if you have an human decency at all you will let people mourn in peace. This is a painful day for a lot of people so don't start anything. Please. 

BITCXHHHH WE JUMPING AND POPPING, WE JOPPING!!!!! 

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! 

I decided to make a book....... It's a Jeongchan Fan fiction and I've had it in my drafts for nearly a year. It probably sucks and nobody is going to read it but.... Why not? 

I'M GOING TO THE ROSE CONCERT!!!!!!!!! YASSSSSSSSS

BITCHHHHHH THE ROSE IS COMING TO WHERE I LIVE!!!!!!!  

 Somebody died and you have the fucking audacity to sit there "oh if he would have danced to-' shut the fuck up.  Just shut up why would you even think about saying something like that in the first place how fucked up in the head are you? SOMEBODY DIED!!!  Their family is never going to see them again to hug them again and you just sat their and said something like that. I don't care if you stan Samuel or not I don't care if you even know who he is. But you have no right to disrespect him like that, you have no right to disrespect his family like that. They are mourning somebody they love and care for and you say that. I seriously hope who ever you are get some help because this is absolutely disgusting.

Okay. I'm going to get right to the point I watched you from being the rebellious kid you are in Grown Ups. I seen you develop and grow from your love for Jessie and become an amazing brother. I watched you save the world in Descendants and fall in love with Connie. I watched you for years. You were one of my favorite childhood actor and holds a big part of im childhood to know that you're gone, hurts. But what can I do, besides remember you and how much happiness you brought me and other people. Goodbye Cameron, love you and miss you with all my heart.❥ 

Okay don't get me wrong I love the 4th of July freedom is shit. But what pisses me off is that Americans seem to celebrate the 4th of July one month before it's actually date and then celebrated 2 months after the date. I don't want  what to wake up at 3 a.m. on fucking September 3rd hearing fireworks.