Grief shows up in so many forms, and this year has been nothing but grief for me. It’s taken such a toll that I ended up hospitalized after a breakdown. I lost my three oldest pets within three months, then my stepfather, and then learned that my brother had died. It’s been a relentless year, leaving me anxious, sad, and constantly bracing for the next blow. Every day feels like a bomb going off, and I catch myself thinking, “Who’s next?” It’s exhausting. All I want to do is sleep and shut everything out. I can’t even bring myself to write or read. I’m hoping I’ll find my way back to it someday, but right now, I just don’t have it in me.