I don't usually write on this, but I needed to vent openly for once.
Today is yet another day where I just want to curl up and cry. Feels like an every day thing now. My Mum never seems to understand how much she is breaking her children through every word she says. I'm sick to death of putting on a fake smile for her and everyone else, just because she wants to see me act happy. She doesn't seem to know that I'm never happy anymore, every day feels like a chore and I'm distancing myself slowly from everyone, other than a certain few. I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to anymore, cause everyone is going through their own issues rn, and I'm the one who needs to sort them out and comfort them, cause I feel like im supposed to be the mature one in the friend group. My mum has forced onto me certain traitd thst i wish i didnt have. Not many people would think this, but im very introverted, and i dont like leaving the house anymore. But i have to, else she will get mad. I do everything i can to impress her, but why can't she see that? I feel like my life only consists of studying and faking a smile. The only lifeline I have rn is my music. But even that is starting to hurt me, realising that the only reason I feel good is some lyrics and a melody. Why is life so hard for me? Then again, other people have it worse, so ig I'm in no place to complain.
Sorry about this, I just really needed somewhere to write my thoughts out.
