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// tw long vent
my father called someone to literally talk shit, in the other room, where i could hear, ON PURPOSE. he called me a backstabber, which i have no clue why. he say’s me and my brother talk shit about him behind his back like what? me and my brother have only talked about the hurtful things you’ve done, because unlike you, my brother listens. not only that but i always have an attitude, im a bitch, blah blah blah. im sorry that im consistently feeling uncomfortable and awkward and insecure around other people or when we are in public. like i tell you im not a people person and you laugh and say “but why though? me and you’re brothers arent like that.” like im sorry im not you, im sorry im not my brothers, im sorry im not my sister, im sorry im mine own person with my own feelings. he’s always judging me with my every interest and dislikes. im sorry i don’t have your style, im sorry i don’t watch what you watch, im sorry i find this food disgusting whilst you don’t, im sorry i don’t do my hair the way you like. “you’re always on that phone, you never socialize” im sorry that i don’t know what to say, im sorry i don’t know what expression to make or how to express it, im sorry i find being alone better for me, im sorry i find interest in talking to strangers who i don’t know because they are less judgmental. “why do you look so bummy?” im sorry that i wear oversized clothes because im insecure about my body, im sorry i use my hair to hide my face because i think it looks disgusting with all the acne, im sorry i wear clothes im comfortable in. im really fucking sorry that for all my life i’ve never been able to be a kid because you put all your problems on me so i just forced myself to listen and adjusted to never being able to communicate or properly express something and that when i tried talking to you in the last you either yelled, laughed, or ignored me so i just shut you and everyone else out completely because that became the normal way for me.