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          That feeling when 99 research

By the way, I added a new chapter to my set it off au book if you want to check it out

I really dislike that my mom seems to think I'll never be happy in how she calls me. Like, she finally agreed to call me my chosen name (after I had a nervous crying face-scratching breakdown during a haphazard conversation about my gender), but she added near the end when I was calmer that "it feels like this will never be enough for you, like even me calling you *chosen name*, you'll be like 'can you call me they?"". And that "I wish you loved yourself".
          
          Its not realistic to expect me to NOT want you to use the pronouns I laid out, even though they're different from birth! I am grateful at least for "no pronouns, just name" but trying to explain this made me break down again, because how do you explain "I want you to use the pronouns I want" without sounding self centered and not considering how awkward that'd be for the other side??
          
          .....she's right. I won't truly be happy, and I hate that.
          I wish she could see how that feels. Should I
          just.... stop pronouning her and see if it
          affects her?
          
          She cares. I know she does. She grabbed my wrists to stop me from scratching myself. ...but she yelled in the process, which I hate. It just is insanely hard to feel like she cares. I feel insane, I feel stupid and wrong and toxic and just plain crazy! Is it my ADHD?? I felt like I was going insane, like I was turning stupid or regressing to a younger mind. Not in like an age regression way, just in a "I know I'm acting immature right now, bawling my eyes on in the fetal position on the ground. I just wish I had the resources and comfort and an explanation to my mom why I look crazy right now".

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          Logicskew the musical would be insane but adorable
          
          (I am inspired by listening to Say My Name in full and realizing how well it works for your side of LS XD)

Not Wattpad giving me self-help resources in my inbox (and removing the post I made a few days ago during a depressive episode about offing-)
          
          Wattpad, I'm fine I promise, I just get like that sometimes and need to complain, but I don't wanna complain to anyone I know irl because I feel like they have their own problems and/or are the source of my problems :'D

https://www.wired.com/story/trump-election-4b-movement-tiktok-x-reddit/?utm_source=pocket-newtab-en-us
          
          Can't say this isn't a good idea.
          
          But I also feel like it enforces some notion of "men only like women for sex" and that's not right at all.

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          Actually, today's schedule is a little wack- I forgor that I might have something later tonight as well. So I might not be able to be on Roblox today-

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          I found Gigi on a solo Floor 1 BUT I DOn'T HAVE PROOF BECAUSE I COULDn'T SCREENSHOT HER T-T

The flower place game has taken over my brain

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          Not me crying over seeing a sad TikTok of the Dandy's World Twisteds (specifically Pebble, Shelly, RnD, and Finn)
          
          I'm simultaneously heartbroken but amused at my own "stupidity" for feeling bad for fictional critters