I've never been that girl. That girl who comes out of a relationship and instantly finds herself in another. Effortlessly. Like it was destiny. I guess it was just never destined for me, to be that girl. That girl who never stops having people confess their unyeilding love for them. That girl who people can't stop talking about how pretty they are. That girl who can get guys to buy her a drink at the bar all with a smack of her patent leather soft lips and a little hair flip. Effortlessly. Like it was destiny. I guess it was just never destined for me, to be that girl.That girl who knows how to flirt properly. That girl who can put her makeup on flawlessly. That girl who can post a photo on Instagram without finding a million insecurities, lurking at the tips of her fingers, as she presses the "share" button. And, I know that I shouldnt let these things define my femininity. I know that I shouldn't let these things bother me, but, they do. Its like having a lack of male attention in this world is seen as an abnormality. It is seen as less than womanly, and I'm always forced to ask myself: what is wrong with me? But maybe it's because I was never destined to be that girl. Maybe it was destined for me to be something more. That girl who just lives her life. That girl who loves herself for who she is, and doesn't rely on male attention to make her feel alright. That girl who knows what she wants, and fights until its hers. That girl who still has insecurities, but, at the end of the day, just says, "whatever", because, we all know who runs the world. Yeah. I wanna be, that girl.