Kaia_Soraya
My rabbit di3d
Extremely emotionally unavailable at the moment
Kaia_Soraya
Kaia_Soraya
So let's throw my garden party,
you promised roses but gave me thorns
- Doomed Yuri Story (Who knowssss)
I might change my user cause I don't want my stories associated with irl me
Kaia_Soraya
Why do I have coins-
Kaia_Soraya
Trying to make a wip of Kaia's 'past memories'. I'll discontinue their story and might end up making a reel with flashes of very subtle memories; main trigger will be the people but other than that, it's a nostalgic type
Kaia_Soraya
Left a little letter, I miss you all/p /gen
Kaia_Soraya
I can't go on Discord anymore, sorry...
Kaia_Soraya
Wattpad removed messages?
Kaia_Soraya
I left a little chapter with messages, I need to go again. Love you all /p
Cedar1883
And replying to my message, thank you for cleaning and I’m proud of you for stopping. Mom now knows about Dad and we haven’t talked in depth yet, I’ll update ya if you’d like when we do. /nf Love and miss you so so much and I’m going to get to with a sneaky hug attack one of these days ;3 /lh
Kaia_Soraya
Sorry sorry sorry, things are getting progressively worse
Got restricted
No more Wattpad, Gmail, IG, rare Discord
I'm sorry
How am I doing? (Major Tw) Cutting and scratching and I can't talk to any of my comfort people so- haha... I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Sorry...
Cedar1883
Am sorry that you’re (tw) sh, if you can’t stop at least make sure you clean well, please..?
Kaia_Soraya
"I'd happily make stories for you if it gives you that feeling"
This idiot has no business making me this warm, happy or safe. Your mind ever just said "Let's be completely cold!!!" or "Oh look, here's a new bad thought" and suddenly someone just shoos it?
Almost completely lost the fire and got submerged back in the ocean. I'm still not mentally or emotionally present but hey- even when my dad is about to get milk (next month...) or exams hates me, I'm not getting any worse
Am a bit better in a sense, I started drawing pretty things and not sad things again. I started listening to soft music again. Got more productive. I'm thanking "Lucien" and "Amity" for the most part
When was the last time I truly believed in "You'll be alright" or "You're not alone"...?
It's so warm. It's freaking cold but they make it so warm
On a different note, I gave up writing novels because of "Lucien". He's just so good and I could never compare. This is his mode of magic. Writing is not mine, drawing is. My stories are transferred through creation and not words that bring color, magic and life to dull black and yellow or white pages. I'm gonna work hard to be called an artist one day just as he, an author