I don't know why I never learn from the past. Every time I open my heart, it ends up getting poked and prodded and stabbed until it ends up being crushed. The worst thing about it is that I never expect it. Just when I think it's okay to stop protecting my heart, I get hurt and the distrustful cycle begins anew. I just want to let someone into my heart without letting him/her crush it. Why can't I have that, if nothing else?