Kaizabird

My exams are today I'm chilling good here and I don't wanna be in my classroom cuz some people I'm not really close with is gonna freaking tell me to fix the exam chairs with them</3 LIKE HELLO, LEAVE ME ALONE DO IT YOURSELF.
          	
          	And I entered a try prayer contest from my school. Like the prose category. Obviously, I'm not drawing again for that</3 
          	
          	So context for the try prayer contest.
          	
          	It's a thing founded in da PILIPINSSSS and well, it's about Jesus, given the name, and we gotta do either poetry, prose (aka the LATEST. stuff I'm making), digital or traditional art following a certain theme.
          	
          	Idk, that's all I know. Oh, and it's done yearly as our performance task, too
          	
          	Like there's rounds, I THINK, cuz if national winners pass the first round or whatever, their work competes internationally... And prize money.
          	
          	Hahahahhaha guess who got competitive.
          	
          	So I kind of clutched it on Monday when I had like 5 assignments due the next day.
          	
          	But let me chill bro, I haven't written in forever, at least I did that</3
          	
          	No cuz I somehow clutched another 2 assignments that were group related 
          	
          	And I got 7 assignments down to 3.
          	
          	What
          	
          	The math isn't mathing 
          	
          	TRUST GUYS IT WAS LIKE 7 IN ONE DAY (I think) I DONT KNOW ANHMORE 
          	
          	Anyways yeah I was proud of it, sent it to my English teacher for feedback and she didn't reply other than "it's good you're asking feedback from me" BUT WHERES RHE FEEDBACK
          	
          	It's okay bro. Even if she replied the next day after the deadline, at least she acknowledged it some way. And like she's also a really kind advisor so yeah, she gets a pass<333
          	
          	Okay part 2 is in replies 

Kaizabird

@Kaizabird 
          	  ANYWAYS IM SLOWLY GAINING BACK WRITING MOTIVATION HUZZAH
          	  
          	  Lowkey.
          	  
          	  Idk man, I'm trying
          	  
          	  And at one point, I thought I had imposter syndrome cuz I do not accept any "you're so good!" Or like "you're a writer!" Cuz I feel like I don't deserve the title or the compliment.
          	  
          	  So the symptoms of this is
          	  
          	  1. Self doubt 
          	  2. Believing I got the success by something else and not because of me
          	  3. Fear of being known as a fraud
          	  4. Perfectionism and over working
          	  5. Dismissing praise 
          	  
          	  Like feeling like a fraud type shi</333 
          	  
          	  Alr lil bro 
          	  
          	  I know I don't have it, idk if you can get diagnosed for this, but that's basically how I feel. Except the number 3 
          	  
          	  Idk man, all I know I have is heavy burn out
          	  
          	  Okay bye bye people of za world:DDDDD
          	  
          	  
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Kaizabird

My exams are today I'm chilling good here and I don't wanna be in my classroom cuz some people I'm not really close with is gonna freaking tell me to fix the exam chairs with them</3 LIKE HELLO, LEAVE ME ALONE DO IT YOURSELF.
          
          And I entered a try prayer contest from my school. Like the prose category. Obviously, I'm not drawing again for that</3 
          
          So context for the try prayer contest.
          
          It's a thing founded in da PILIPINSSSS and well, it's about Jesus, given the name, and we gotta do either poetry, prose (aka the LATEST. stuff I'm making), digital or traditional art following a certain theme.
          
          Idk, that's all I know. Oh, and it's done yearly as our performance task, too
          
          Like there's rounds, I THINK, cuz if national winners pass the first round or whatever, their work competes internationally... And prize money.
          
          Hahahahhaha guess who got competitive.
          
          So I kind of clutched it on Monday when I had like 5 assignments due the next day.
          
          But let me chill bro, I haven't written in forever, at least I did that</3
          
          No cuz I somehow clutched another 2 assignments that were group related 
          
          And I got 7 assignments down to 3.
          
          What
          
          The math isn't mathing 
          
          TRUST GUYS IT WAS LIKE 7 IN ONE DAY (I think) I DONT KNOW ANHMORE 
          
          Anyways yeah I was proud of it, sent it to my English teacher for feedback and she didn't reply other than "it's good you're asking feedback from me" BUT WHERES RHE FEEDBACK
          
          It's okay bro. Even if she replied the next day after the deadline, at least she acknowledged it some way. And like she's also a really kind advisor so yeah, she gets a pass<333
          
          Okay part 2 is in replies 

Kaizabird

@Kaizabird 
            ANYWAYS IM SLOWLY GAINING BACK WRITING MOTIVATION HUZZAH
            
            Lowkey.
            
            Idk man, I'm trying
            
            And at one point, I thought I had imposter syndrome cuz I do not accept any "you're so good!" Or like "you're a writer!" Cuz I feel like I don't deserve the title or the compliment.
            
            So the symptoms of this is
            
            1. Self doubt 
            2. Believing I got the success by something else and not because of me
            3. Fear of being known as a fraud
            4. Perfectionism and over working
            5. Dismissing praise 
            
            Like feeling like a fraud type shi</333 
            
            Alr lil bro 
            
            I know I don't have it, idk if you can get diagnosed for this, but that's basically how I feel. Except the number 3 
            
            Idk man, all I know I have is heavy burn out
            
            Okay bye bye people of za world:DDDDD
            
            
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Kaizabird

Bro I'm going to school tomorrow
          
          I know I caught HFMD and was absent for the entire first week of school and uh haven't answered my online activities, BUT HEY, I CAN ALWAYS SAY I WAS SICK AS AN EXCUSE
          
          No but srsy tho, I didn't do anything that entire week. Now I have to either slip past the consequences or reap it<333
          
          Okay goodnight I'm sleepy

Kaizabird

@XxZSpeakerDrone74xX nah bro, I'm off the hook HAHAHA
            So far, I haven't missed anything important. Lessons yeah, but no activities so far. I mean, with science, yes, but my teacher (whom everyone has beef with) is good with me cuz I'm on her good side and told me I got intervention
            No srsy tho, she said intervention and all I can think of is "DIVINE INTERVENTION" from ramshackle</3
            But yeah, she freaking dragged on a conversation for like 20 minutes in text. Like dude, it's 12 am, let me sleep</3
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Kaizabird

To this day, I still don't know who the artist is of my banner art. 
          
          All I know is that I need... YOU. To figure things out... Together:3 *hand bone cracks, breaks the patch*
          
          0 ^ 0!! 
          
          Heh. HEh. heH. HEhHEh. That's really sweet big brother. 
          
          *Insert my favourite fight scene*
          
          Okay but srsy, all I know is that I found it on Google in my computer, probably half-saw devian art out of the corner of my eye and just downloaded it when I was first starting out</3
          
          
          
          
          

Kaizabird

Okay, let's discuss. Was Nuzi handled right? Like did their progression make sense? If you take out all the hugging and physical touching, did their emotional states REALLY make sense? If you want, you can be including eNVy's backstory and V's actions. Just genuinely curious about yalls opinions. And no, y'all can't be biased in this, IM ALSO A CHRONIC NUZI SHIPPER. But I'll be sharing my thoughts too.
          
          So... Lowkey, it was handled fine. But my question is, where did N's crush come from ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ
          I get it. It's okay to move on from a toxic (at the time) crush who pretends to not know your name, but genuinely. Why is N suddenly holding her hand in ep 6? If we rewind to ep 4, bro DID have a therapy session with her. Princess carry. So like they shared a vulnerable moment. I get having vulnerable moments determine whether or not you accept the person or not, but hmmm... Is that REALLY the reason?
          
          Okay. Rewind again. Episodes 1-3. Nothing much there. Except the knife dance which I love. AND N AND UZI BEING SHY IN THE UWU UZI SCENE.
          
          I think that's the like. Start of it.
          
          Also, the reason why I didn't mention the "N didn't hold her hand back after he took it out in the sun in the bus" because honestly, I think he's like "oh. Ehrm. Zombie drone!" Or "oh, I don't wanna hold your hand, yet. I'm highkey jittery."
          
          Idk what I'm discussing about.
          
          Okay part two below this 

XxPierced_PrincessxX

@Kaizabird  FO REAL LMAOO
            also hiiiiii kaiza :DDDD
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Kaizabird

@XxPierced_PrincessxX REAL. I still love them obviously, but like the rest of the (majority) of fhe series, their ship was rushed. Like I was fine with a depressing ending, Liam, I like my angst</3 But dude, I'm gng (I know it means gang. I don't care, it's genuinely in my book) questioning their ship
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XxPierced_PrincessxX

@Kaizabird ik Im like mega fuckin late and missed the entire discussion but thank god someone bouta talk abt this bc ever since I was slowly fallin out of the nuzi ship (no hate, Im jus losing my hyperfixation ) Ive been thinking similar things. Like why did N actually like her? btrnemwemrbhjekjr
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Kaizabird

HAPPY NEW YEARRR

Kaizabird

@Xx_SlaveMaster2_xX you know what, YEAH! Amazing bro
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XxZSpeakerDrone74xX

@Kaizabird ONE DAY SKIBIDI TOILET WILL RETURN TO BOOM
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Kaizabird

@Xx_SlaveMaster2_xX :DDDD HALLO MY BEST SKIBIDI TOILET FREN
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Kaizabird

MERRY MERRY MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS MY LOVELY READERS<3333
          
          So uh. I have the motivation. 
          Also, I drew V a few days ago because I forced myself to get out of my creative slump, then I remembered I have the ability to be creative.
          
          Therefore hallway crush new chapter draft is open after weeks of not touching it</3
          
          Let's hope I publish tonight or tomorrow. I'm gonna backflip into the water off a cliff</3
          
          

Kaizabird

@Kaizabird ALSO WHAT THE SIGMA BRO, 141 NEW RAT ARMY MEMBERS? I freaking love y'all, I genuinely thought MD wattpad was dead, then I found my notifs blowed up
            
            Welp
            Guess I have to do my part to keep the fanfiction part of it alive
            Baked cinnamon rollz and Nightingale Witch (the author of The Glass Rose, DUDE I HAVENT READ THE NEW CHAPTERS YET) already did, so I should too
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