kai

i know it’s not the first year without her, but this march will make a tenth. ten years without my beautiful grandma. and not a single year has been the same. i feel like some story’s are forever unfinished, but i hope ours is just a little longer in the next life.

i love writing messy ass fics that will never leave the drafts. like the drama is so interesting and addictive. will i post them? never in a million years. do i have an unhealthy obsession with the messiness? yes. do i hate messy fics? hell yeah. but when i do it, it’s different somehow.

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i know i did not just write a 276 word paragraph over something that never happened about fictional characters who got less than a page in a whole series of books. one that didn’t even exist in the movies. a mother that was never mentioned not once and a love story that was not only illegal in there time but didn’t even exist in the canon world :| mental illness is crazy tbh :,/