black_rose-666
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https://open.spotify.com/track/5Z6UMh8TMzxXslMc3bRXy1?si=hbZU_GePTbiewGmc7IwtAQ this song is how my mood has been for about 3 months now....im losing friends and im debating on just shutting every one out of my life and quitting my job i'm losing myself because i try to get over u and i just physically cant i just want a break so my brain can relax but it wont stop i cant stop thinking about u it hurts because i miss u yet we cant be together right now so i'm trying to just forget about use at least till i'm done with this year but i cant.....ive lost hope i want just stop thinking breathing i was so alone today i drank bourbon straight and just cried in my living room for like an hour maybe two and i have been off my meds since covid began so my mental shit is not good or healthy anymore i'm broken and i'm a horrible person and i hate myself i 100% hate myself when i look in the mirror i just want to kill the person i'm seeing...im a broken piece of shit who has mommy problems and no bio father and who keeps needing more then a normal fucking 18 year old needs medically....i don't deserve to be here i don't deserve you your to nice and caring to be with a fucked up person like me
Kallionwolf
@black_rose-666 yes you do deserve to be here. Things are just being really rough for you right now is all like it is for me. You are just going thru a lot. I honestly have drank tonight too and been off my med since the beginning of this year. Don't quite the job you need it from what you have said.
