Kalyn

Hi all my jellybeans!!!
          
          How are all of you?
          
          I'm sorry I took my stories down. I have put them under editing.
          
          But I am surely editing them quickly and posting them back to my page. 
          
          Sorry for the rant last time. 
          
          I just have low tolerance for jack asses who lead someone to think they can trust you but in the end they are just lile every other guy.
          
          But whatever. Fuck him.
          
          I'm happy and single.
          
          Just don't want to mingle lol.
          
          I wanna be a single pringleeeeee.
          
          
          Anyways go read my books if you will.
          
          I love you all (except the Jack ass who knows who he is)
          
          Bye loves xx
          

You never loved me.
          
          Meanwhile I gave you everything I could.
          
          I tried to keep you happy.
          
          I tried to show caring.
          
          Understanding.
          
          Forgivness.
          
          Compassion.
          
          Trust.
          
          Respect.
          
          Loyalty.
          
          And soo much more.
          
          But it wasn't enough for you.
          
          I just wasn't enough and I don't know why.
          
          But let her have you.
          
          I can't stand the thought of your cheating ass.
          
          Let alone the sight of you.
          
          Writing this had made me sick to my stomach because I've had to think of you to do this.
          
          All those promises.
          
          Secrets.
          
          Everything.
          
          It's all nothing.
          
          And I'll be damned if I let you hurt me again.
          
          I hope y'all are happy together.
          
          Fuck all the girls you want.
          
          Have all the side hoes you want.
          
          I don't care.
          
          But one day you'll want something real.
          
          And you will get rid of all the hoes and fake girls and realize...
          
          What I gave you was real.
          
          And honestly....
          
          You don't deserve that.
          
          

I hate the thought of you.
          
          How dare you.
          
          How dare you...
          
          How dare you say you loved me with her spit on your tongue.
          
          How dare you say to me that you hate seeing me hurt but try getting me back when you know the things that you did with her.
          
          How dare you sneak behind my back and when we see each other you act as if nothing happened and everything is okay.
          
          How dare you!
          
          I have never told anyone.... ANYONE.... In my entire life this....
          
          But I hate you.
          
          -yours truly
          Xoxo bitch

It's all gone. All of it. Nothing is left and nothing can be saved now. 
          
          But you wanna know something......
          Boys only think of one thing. 
          
          And one thing only.
          
          Sex. 
          
          And if you aren't putting out, then they'll find someone who will. 
          
          Well let me tell you something.
          
          Let her have you. 
          
          I don't want you.
          
          I don't love you.
          
          I don't trust you.
          
          I don't respect you.
          
          Not as a friend, lover, or person.
          
          When you did that to me.... 
          
          You lost every good feeling or thought about you.
          
          Whenever I thought of you... I always saw that guy who was sweet, caring, protective, an open book, always worrying. 
          
          When I thought of you my stomach would get butterflies and I would smile at the mention of your name. 
          
          I would think back on the funny times, adorable times, and the caring times.
          
          But now.....
          
          Now when I think of you. I think of a disgrace of a person.
          
          An untruthful,
          
          Untrustful,
          
          Unloyal,
          
          Non-caring,
          
          Unloving,
          
          Unfaithful,
          
          Lying,
          
          Manipulative,
          
          Person.
          
          Everytime, every single time something didn't go your way.... You begin acting all upset and pouty.
               
          Now when I think of you, I'll think of what you did to me. 
          
          The messed up, screwed up, unfair thing that you did.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          

Can anyone tell me..... Why? 
          Why do others lie and go behind each other's back?
          Why do others say they love each other with someone else's spit on their tongues?
          Why do people pretend they are happy with you when they're not?
          Why do people think its okay to hurt others? Or lie to each other?
          
          Quit faking and just be honest!
          
          What is so hard about being truthful???
          
          And the same questions everyone asks themselves....
          
          Why wasn't I good enough?
          Did I not make them happy enough? 
          Did I act unloyal at any point?
          Why did they begin to doubt us at all?
          Why did they go behind my back like that?
          Did I deserve this?
          What happened to trust?
          What happened to respect?
          What happened to dignity?