I am Me

No sound, but no sense of tranquility. Submerged in thought and doubt, I feel myself rushing down as if falling from great heights. I wanted easy answers and my emotional agony removed that moment. I was so anxious in my doubts. With no air in my lungs or ground beneath my feet, I feel helpless and lost. Away with these feelings I must go in turn for a better outlook on my future and my succeeding years of existence. I should follow my intricate life. I am left with days and hours, minutes and seconds to know myself more. In every single detail of precious time reaching out the ways to find the ultimate goal of satisfying my hungry thoughts on how to unlock happiness in my heart is still processing for now. 

Sometimes I feel so down, terribly insecure from the fact that I was born without a father beside me. My heart is pounding every time I see a father and a child hugging and seeing that unexplainable feeling of love connecting with each other. But each time I feel the gentle touch and warm embrace of my mother, I said to myself there’s nothing on earth would exceed the caressed of my beloved mother. My mom is not just a mother for me; she is also a father, a best friend and turns out to be an extra-ordinary person. I couldn’t ask for more. But God is really good He sent us a blithesome and propitious man as a replacement of my biological father. Then this blithesome and propitious man became my second father and a loving husband to my mom. 

When I was a small child, I longed for the day when I could walk into my neighborhood kindergarten classroom and become a part of academia. When I saw myself having a complete family, I have found my home. I love my home because my parents cared enough about my future to instill in me a love of learning that I wanted so deeply to set off in search of more knowledge. When I was in grade 5, my parents had to leave because they need to earn money to support my future and our future.