Kara Rhoades

The Wild Glow is on Hiatus and under revision- in the meanwhile, check out Tears of Silver. That’ll probably be under revision as well in the future, but that’s okay! 

I’m baaaacccckkkkk! 
          
          It’s been way too long but my brain’s been absolutely buttering with ideas and I just had to write. 
          
          Two chapters of The Wild Glow have been published- currently working on the third. Would love some feedback. I’ve been working very hard. 

Hello, 

I am struggling SO HARD with my body image. My weight has fluctuated due to medical reasons, and I havent exactly been able to eat right. I feel ashamed and degraded. 

Call me a know it all or whatever. I DON'T have to know more than anyone else. I choose to obtain knowledge on a daily basis because all I've ever felt my entire life is that I am completely fucking stupid. I feel my IQ deteriorating every single day I don't force myself to think. 

I'm highly convinced I'm cursed or some shit

My man: *sends a new selfie*
          Me: HOLYYYY SHITTTT

Stop changing yourself so you can become wifey material for the wrong man, sis. The right man knows that you're perfect for him. 

I have spent so long thinking that love was me putting someone else's needs before my own. But I learned that I was half right- that was me loving someone. I needed someone to do the same for me. I am so used to being low on the list of priorities while I made my significant other number one on my list. Even my ex's sexual needs came before mine.  I guess me giving my all was why it was so difficult for me to get over my ex. It's going to take a bit of effort for my walls to come down- I got hurt BAD. I didn't want to live with that pain for a while. But then I decided to work on myself. Because I needed to love myself first. Then my man came along, and I've honestly been the happiest I've ever been in almost 2 years; he's been showing me what being treated right really looks like and it's an indescribable feeling. I know that it's so beautiful it makes one cry. 

When you've only known love that treats you wrong, its scary and beautiful when someone comes along and treats you right.