Karsadie

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I wish it would let me delete the conversations I’ve said, all of these are fucking stupid lmao

Karsadie

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I miss my dad. He isn’t dead, but my mom isn’t letting me see him because I haven’t been doing my schoolwork.
          Bitch, I’m not doing my schoolwork because I’m really fucking depressed about not being able to see me father. 
          LET ME SEE MY DAD BEFORE ONE OF US DIES.
          This pandemic has really been making me think about what I would do if the people I loved died. 
          I’m already suicidal, so obviously I would probably kill myself.
          Also, we just had a fight about it, and she told me if I want to have a life then I need to do schoolwork, and I answered with “I’d rather sleep all my life.” but what I meant was “I’d rather be dead.”
          Honestly man, why do I even post these? No one reads them and no one cares! I might as well tell you people all my darkest secrets and just FUCKING KILL MYSELF. 
          I’M GOING TO KILL MYSELF GOD DAMNIT WHAT’S THE POINT?! 
          WHAT’S THE POINT OF LIVING?!
          LIFE IS JUST SHITTY ENCOUNTERS WITH OTHER HUMANS THEN YOU DIE.
          I’m such a fucking horrible person I’m such a disappointment I’m such a bad child I’m such a FUCKING WASTE OF SPACE.
          I’M SUCH A WASTE OF OXYGEN.

Karsadie

@orange_enthusiast  I already replied something but forgot to put your name, so Idk if you got it.
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Karsadie

I’m sorry...
            I probably sound annoying or selfish or something, but man, living is overwhelming. 
            If it’s THIS hard just sitting here at home, doing nothing, ‘relaxing’ and everything, what will it be like when I—I mean IF I grow up to be a fully grown adult and have true responsibilities???
            I’m sorry...I don’t like bothering other people with my problems, but...sometimes I just burst and all my pent up emotions hit me like a freight train.
            I-I’m just sorry for...
            I don’t even really have anything to be sorry for, I just am.
            GOD I’m so awkward why am I like this...?
            I’m so bad at talking to people wtf.
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orange_enthusiast

@Karsadie I get how you feel and it’s hard to grasp the truth, the reality of what you live in, but please know that I and many others care about you. It hurts. I know. If you want to talk, vent all of your feelings here cuz I’ll always be here for you
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Karsadie

It’s 10:17 AM in Kansas and I haven’t slept (☞ ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)☞
          Help me.
          My eyelids are getting stuck to my eyeballs, that’s how dry and sleep deprived my eyes are.
          I hate myself, did you know that?
          I’m legitimately suicidal and just told all of you! Enjoy it while I’m sleep deprived and before I take down this post. I have a book on Quotev about my life and my suicidal tendencies as well! Please check it out before...idk...before I remove it or something...?
          https://www.quotev.com/story/12553256/This-Suicidal-Woman/1

Deerlhia

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Hi I'm French and I never sleep because all of my friends are in America
             (☞ﾟヮﾟ)☞ ☜(ﾟヮﾟ☜)
            
            I once did a book full of my suicidal tendencies and my shitty depressed life but Wattpad made me taking it off, fuck off Wattpad (ง'̀-'́)ง
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Karsadie

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I was cleaning my room and looking for spots that bugs could potentially nest, so I lifted up my 36x24 framed JoJo poster and there was a big ass centipede. Like, those super wide ones with tons of legs; it might’ve been a millipede...
          Also, I’m obsessed with the songs:
          Boss Bitch by Doja Cat
          Mama Said by Lukas Graham
          Look at me! by XXXTENTACION
          And Cradles by Sub Urban
          I’ve been a fan of them for a while.
          Also, Grandson is my favorite musical artist just btw, and you should check out his songs and the songs I recommended!♡´･ᴗ･`♡

Karsadie

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I just drove over to my dads house for the first time in a week. Listen to this; when I went up to my room to put my stuff away, there were Stinkbugs...
          EVERYWHERE.
          I counted the ones on the window curtain. 8. Fucking 8 big ass Stinkbugs sitting there.
          DISGUSTANG ಠ_ಠ
          I’m taking both my PlayStations and I’m going downstairs to sleep on the couch because, HELL NO. 
          Red Dead 2 ain’t no fun when I’m paranoid about fucking bugs crawling up my ass.
          (;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)

Karsadie

So, I’m stopping requests for drawings because I’m starting my online schooling again; I have PTSD from all the way back in Middle School, and School in general is a lot harder for me to get through than the average student. My anxiety and depression is also extremely hard to deal with, not to mention my ADHD, Social Anxiety, and the day to day suicidal thought doesn’t fūCking heLp- 
          Let’s just say... I’m pretty fūcking messed up right now and need time to heal, but meds aren’t really working and life doesn’t seem to be getting better or easier any time soon. 
          Fūckkkkk-

Karsadie

I’m so glad I just wrote this for my NinE fOlLoWeRs
            Dedication bïtchhh-
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